ayu's DIARY: 9/11/2009 - 10/11/2009
"Tsuyosa wo Kudasai. (Strength please.)"
9 November 2009 5:44 AM
I said that in a CM for a drink back in the day.♪
With a wounded face, unkempt short blond hair, and a bandage stuck on my nose.
In the background, "moshimo tatta hitotsu dake negai ga kanau nara~*" is playing~, ah, the old days.
At the time, I was... 22 years old!! Daaannggg. lol
I know what you're thinking, what's with this talk all of a sudden? Well today, Minazo has a bandage like that on his nose, in the same spot.
When we saw it, me and Bancho both reacted to it at exactly the same time, saying
"Strength Please!!!"
We're so bad. lol.
Back then, I felt like I did nothing but hurt people who were important to me.
I probably didn't practice what I was preaching regarding strength.
As for how I am now... I think I started understanding the meaning of "strength" a long time ago, at least more than the me in that commercial.
But by my own measure, of course.
Only someone who notices all the small wounds, pains, and cries, only someone who can face that without turning their eyes away, really has the strength of living.
Becoming strong is definitely not something to be taken lightly.
On top of everything I've understood, today again I had thoughts that the face of an important person to me is something I'll absolutely always hold fast to, until the very end.
I would do anything to that effect.
And to that effect, Pino-san likewise has such a curious face.
Papico helps out in the fine art of totem pole creation.
But, of course, regardless of what I say, they would always rather be next to each other.
They'll always want to be next to each other.
Isn't that right? <3
Love ya, loves <3
*"If you could only have one wish granted...", lyrics from "NEVER EVER".
Seriously,
10 November 2009 7:32 AM
the night was a long one~.
What a day, it was still dark at 5:30 this morning~.
The sun came up about fifteen minutes later though.
I thought I'd be grateful for such a long night since I've been working, but I was all alone in my house so I was thinking, "please hurry up and come, morning!"... I'm kinda waffling on whether night is good or bad, huh? lol
So anyway, even though it was the middle of the night, it's natural for me to pass through this sort of scenery.
If you really look, and if you really think about it, Tokyo is amazing.
This is a city that never sleeps, too.
And we have to survive in our own concrete jungle today!!
Yesterday, my guide post to live, a very very important person, saw "This Is It" and sent me an e-mail with their thoughts.
And because of it... I really need to work hard!!!!
Everyone...
10 November 2009 10:08 PM
This morning, when I wrote "very very important person," a strangely high amount of you sent me your feelings on that. A number of you were in a very very good mood about it, lol.
But the person I was writing about is a woman who's older than me.♪
I could live my whole life and never catch up to her. And I don't want to try to catch up.
I always want to walk forward looking at her back as a guidepost for living.*
No matter what might come up, no matter what I meet, even if I can't talk to her, I believe in her, and my feelings of love for her will never change.
The days when she & I can laugh together are definitely coming again soon.
So it's oookkkkaaaaayyyy--------------!!!!!!!!!
On the days I can't see her, I become so dull, so the next time I've been able to see her, I won't want to talk.
So today, once again, I'll be living with all my might. You know?
I've recently been very cold to you all, but I'm always hoping that I can send warm days to your hearts and bodies.☆
*This recalls the lyrics to Ayu's song "walking proud" almost directly.
Creds: tasking & Deli@AHS
9 November 2009 5:44 AM
I said that in a CM for a drink back in the day.♪
With a wounded face, unkempt short blond hair, and a bandage stuck on my nose.
In the background, "moshimo tatta hitotsu dake negai ga kanau nara~*" is playing~, ah, the old days.
At the time, I was... 22 years old!! Daaannggg. lol
I know what you're thinking, what's with this talk all of a sudden? Well today, Minazo has a bandage like that on his nose, in the same spot.
When we saw it, me and Bancho both reacted to it at exactly the same time, saying
"Strength Please!!!"
We're so bad. lol.
Back then, I felt like I did nothing but hurt people who were important to me.
I probably didn't practice what I was preaching regarding strength.
As for how I am now... I think I started understanding the meaning of "strength" a long time ago, at least more than the me in that commercial.
But by my own measure, of course.
Only someone who notices all the small wounds, pains, and cries, only someone who can face that without turning their eyes away, really has the strength of living.
Becoming strong is definitely not something to be taken lightly.
On top of everything I've understood, today again I had thoughts that the face of an important person to me is something I'll absolutely always hold fast to, until the very end.
I would do anything to that effect.
And to that effect, Pino-san likewise has such a curious face.
Papico helps out in the fine art of totem pole creation.
But, of course, regardless of what I say, they would always rather be next to each other.
They'll always want to be next to each other.
Isn't that right? <3
Love ya, loves <3
*"If you could only have one wish granted...", lyrics from "NEVER EVER".
Seriously,
10 November 2009 7:32 AM
the night was a long one~.
What a day, it was still dark at 5:30 this morning~.
The sun came up about fifteen minutes later though.
I thought I'd be grateful for such a long night since I've been working, but I was all alone in my house so I was thinking, "please hurry up and come, morning!"... I'm kinda waffling on whether night is good or bad, huh? lol
So anyway, even though it was the middle of the night, it's natural for me to pass through this sort of scenery.
If you really look, and if you really think about it, Tokyo is amazing.
This is a city that never sleeps, too.
And we have to survive in our own concrete jungle today!!
Yesterday, my guide post to live, a very very important person, saw "This Is It" and sent me an e-mail with their thoughts.
And because of it... I really need to work hard!!!!
Everyone...
10 November 2009 10:08 PM
This morning, when I wrote "very very important person," a strangely high amount of you sent me your feelings on that. A number of you were in a very very good mood about it, lol.
But the person I was writing about is a woman who's older than me.♪
I could live my whole life and never catch up to her. And I don't want to try to catch up.
I always want to walk forward looking at her back as a guidepost for living.*
No matter what might come up, no matter what I meet, even if I can't talk to her, I believe in her, and my feelings of love for her will never change.
The days when she & I can laugh together are definitely coming again soon.
So it's oookkkkaaaaayyyy--------------!!!!!!!!!
On the days I can't see her, I become so dull, so the next time I've been able to see her, I won't want to talk.
So today, once again, I'll be living with all my might. You know?
I've recently been very cold to you all, but I'm always hoping that I can send warm days to your hearts and bodies.☆
*This recalls the lyrics to Ayu's song "walking proud" almost directly.
Creds: tasking & Deli@AHS
ayu's DIARY: 8/11/2009
Detta inlägg är översatt först av Ayuangel till franska och sedan av Neffiline från AHS till engelska. Hon talar kanadensisk franska så hon berättar att det var småjobbigt att översätta vid vissa delar. Jag tycker att översättningen blev lyckad hur som helst. Håll till godo, Ayu berättar om kommande CDL. Spännande!
Alone and discret...
08-11-2009 06h14
…Chon-san is doing her office work, good evening. Hmm? Or rather, good day? ? ?
It's been hours already that we’ve been watching ourselves with the screen of my computer and my TV. On top of that, my laptop in free hands, I doing briefings with members of my staff at the same time.
I feel that I suffered an attack of high waves lol **
And why all this ...?
Because ...
I am preparing for the Setlist of Countdown Live!
The God of Setlist (I'm not talking about Zin-san, am I? ***) came down on me!
And it’s starting to look pretty good! ♪
It seems that it’s already been 10 years since I started doing CDL at Yoyogi.
It's been 10 years since I have the chance to spend time from the end to the new year in our Holy Land!
Yet every year, every year, I was told the lack of seats, it's really something that warms my heart.
This year, while thinking back to all that, it's bound to be something very special because it will be the 10th anniversary! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
You can expect something really big! ♪
Oh, about today, I had something to see with Maro-chan, we were on the phone, when I remembered that Michael song he put in his blog title, I didn’t know what it was anymore, it worried me, I asked him, and he started singing loudly! lol
I thought of asking him the title of a song, but it's the whole song that came back to me lol
Okay, I must start writing the script for the show.
But, you know, today I re-watched old DVDs, I am always so impressed by Marionette. I have goosebumps.
**This I'm not sure how to translate, I've never heard of this saying in french**
*** She's playing with the words here, in japanese the kanji for god is also read "shin" or "jin". Even though Zin writes his name with a Z, they will pronounce it "Jin"
Creds: Neffiline@AHS
Alone and discret...
08-11-2009 06h14
…Chon-san is doing her office work, good evening. Hmm? Or rather, good day? ? ?
It's been hours already that we’ve been watching ourselves with the screen of my computer and my TV. On top of that, my laptop in free hands, I doing briefings with members of my staff at the same time.
I feel that I suffered an attack of high waves lol **
And why all this ...?
Because ...
I am preparing for the Setlist of Countdown Live!
The God of Setlist (I'm not talking about Zin-san, am I? ***) came down on me!
And it’s starting to look pretty good! ♪
It seems that it’s already been 10 years since I started doing CDL at Yoyogi.
It's been 10 years since I have the chance to spend time from the end to the new year in our Holy Land!
Yet every year, every year, I was told the lack of seats, it's really something that warms my heart.
This year, while thinking back to all that, it's bound to be something very special because it will be the 10th anniversary! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
You can expect something really big! ♪
Oh, about today, I had something to see with Maro-chan, we were on the phone, when I remembered that Michael song he put in his blog title, I didn’t know what it was anymore, it worried me, I asked him, and he started singing loudly! lol
I thought of asking him the title of a song, but it's the whole song that came back to me lol
Okay, I must start writing the script for the show.
But, you know, today I re-watched old DVDs, I am always so impressed by Marionette. I have goosebumps.
**This I'm not sure how to translate, I've never heard of this saying in french**
*** She's playing with the words here, in japanese the kanji for god is also read "shin" or "jin". Even though Zin writes his name with a Z, they will pronounce it "Jin"
Creds: Neffiline@AHS
ayu's DIARY: 29/10/2009 - 7/11/2009
Äntligen en update från ayu's DIARY. Här skriver hon en hel del om Michael Jackson, om sina hundar och om sina nya låtar. Hon ger oss en titt in i BALLADs och You were...s lyrics dessutom. Mycket spännande! ^^
Michael Jackson
29 October 2009 2:39 AM
I'm really fidgety waiting to go see his movie.
This is Chon-san. Good evening.
Okie dokie, well, it's been said plenty of times, but this is the closest thing to my own original words, because they sound good to me, and I don't want to tell a lie, I don't want to only say pretty things.
And, above all, I want to hear "thank you" more than "I'm sorry," and I want to say it more too.
Having turned 31 recently, I feel I've been reborn, so I'm thinking like that alot lately.
I must say, although I'm probably jumping to things, or maybe I'm not really making a big jump at all (whichever), I've been doing work on the contents for a certain DVD, and even though I knew a little while ago, the moment I know more, the whole world will, but I persuaded myself that "I can't say anything right now" but in the end, I can't wait to write this tomorrow, even though I'm feeling a bit hazy at the moment. So I'm writing.
I record things in this diary for my own sake.
Well, I can write this with no fear of misunderstanding. I really, from the bottom of my heart, am so proud of the cast and my staff, all those strong and great people, who create my shows.
They're the strongest and greatest entertainment group, my life is the shows they help create.
And yet, the strongest piece, the one I hold in the highest, is that I can't compare my shows to anyone else's whenever I think of doing it.
To begin with, comparing myself with someone else is such nonsense, we're all distinct human beings, so you can't compare.
The "something" that I have, someone else will never have it, and I will never have the "something" that someone else has.
This is something that everyone can say about themselves, not just me.
Based on what I've said (or despite it... whatever), the work on this DVD is strange and amusing.
With this show, there's the superior and the junior staff always walking together, the staff we met for the first time, and above all, the usual guests who all together, at any moment, will begin clapping and cheering, honestly enjoying themselves, and that's what allows the show to come into existence.
A staggering amount of human power is able to be gathered, and it's a miraculous moment.
If I leave it as a piece of work, maybe, if I think of it as a piece of work, I think there are so many other forms it could have taken.
Jeez, Chon-san is just rambling to herself now.
Anyway!!!
All of us here are looking towards the end of the year, working very hard day after day, thinking like entertainers, all so we can welcome the lovely new year together with everyone, and we'll be back home to Yoyogi soon so do look forward to it!!!!!!!
And this year too, I'll keep working to fill up as many seats as possible all in one place!!!!!!!!!
Sleep warmly, everyone! <3
I'm singing
30 October 2009 1:10 PM
Getting it done, slowly but surely.
Getting settled in the vocal booth.
Yesterday I was doing really great, but part of the way through, started to cry, overcome with emotion.
Afterwards, I just kept on singing, sweating like crazy, but concentrating very hard, and when recording was done, my entire head was hurting, and to make matters worse, I felt really cold, so I hurried home as quickly as I could.
If I catch a cold now, don't you laugh~~~!!
Anyway, I took some cell phone photos yesterday but I didn't post them here.
So I'm gonna do that right now.
Yesterday's Fashion Check~☆
The fluffy knit cardigan is from Chane-ko-san.*
It has silver threading mixed into it. <3
The studded vest is from NINE.
The pants aren't in the photo, but they're sarouelles** from Alexander McQueen.
The T-Shirt and studded beret are from Tocopaci.
The sunglasses are my hot Ray-Bans, as usual~.
But my number one favorite thing I was wearing that day was the studded beret. ↓
I have to record again today, so I need to get myself coordinated in order to be able to put my feelings in song.☆
Holy crap, October is already over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wheeeeeeeeeee...
Oh well, time's gonna keep on passing by, isn't it?
Even this moment right here will pass.
Seeya later, time---------!
And I finally got on board the train and I'm shaking along with its rhythm.
*I guess she means Chanel? XD
**If you're like me and had to look this up, they're like middle-eastern style pants that are baggy, but more around the hips & thighs, then they're more form-fitting around the lower legs (to different degrees). They're fashionable right now apparently, so I probably look like an idiot having to look it up, but I don't keep up with fashion. Like, at all. So yeah. :P
It was Halloween
1 November 2009 5:50 PM
...wasn't it~?
Yesterday, I was chased by a large crowd of costumed people, and yes they were scary.
But I ran and ran as hard as I could and I got away! LOL
Until I reached a maximum distance from them, I ran. I felt like someone who'd done a very bad thing.
So, we just barely slid into the very last showing.
Yep!
I finally saw it.
I can't write my thoughts.
Because I'm unable to put them into words.
But I will say that when the movie was over, the theater did not brighten.
Because right then I was taken aback when I realized that while I was seeing this "movie," I completely forgot reality. I was completely deluded into thinking I was "there."
It's like I slipped away from my seat, I was leaning forward the whole time.
I really couldn't watch it with an objective eye.
Oh, and I thought I should apologize, I started crying within the first 30 seconds, and then I just wept the whole time and my nose was running and it didn't stop, just tears and tears and more tears, and the people next to me HAD to be annoyed by my "waaah waaah, sniffle sniffle" sounds.
Sorry about that...
Afterwards, the three of us went to go eat some Thai food.
I casually put my stuff on the table, and it ended up being interesting to look at so I took a photo.
Chon-san's bag (BALMAIN) & leather jacket (BALMAIN) & hat (Blumarine) feat. The Disposable Chopsticks.
Isn't the hat cute?
Here's how it looks when I wear it.
(Oh yeah, I dyed my hair black. It's nice, I like it.)
So, right as I finish eating just the right amount of food, the phone rings.
As soon as I answer, I hear "Ayuuu~! Can I come yet???"
By the way, I made no promise to meet up with him. lol
This is who was on the other line☟
It was Mr. Black Shirt. lol
Next to him is a really close friend~♪
And seriously, a succession of Michael Jackson songs were playing in the shop the whole time.
Everyone danced too much, we got all sweaty.
We smiled excessively.
It was the best night ever.
I still can't say goodbye, so.... Thank you, Michael.
Oops!!!
4 November 2009 06:09 AM
It's been a few days, huh~?
I've just been so caught up recording some very good songs~☆
I want everyone to hear them really soooon---------------!!!
The approach for the jacket photos is a little bit different than anything I've done so far... when you combine them with the song itself, the photos are really great, so look forward to them♪
Sooo anywaaay... for my twins' third birthday celebration, my other little babies mustered up some congratulations <3
Here's the cake <3 It's for the dogs <3
It has "Pino <3 Papico" written on it-!! Fun stuff.
And then there was a fight over the cake. lol
I guess that's what happens when you have 7 animals. They're gonna scramble for things. lol
With full tummies, sleeping happily☟
I love them so much, they're growing up too fast for me!<3
I'll join hands with everyone again tomorrow.
Yesterday,
6 November 2009 05:18 AM
with an infinite loop going in my head, I wasn't very good at putting together words to describe something that happened, but on Subalog., Suu-san wrote about it accurately.
The thing about "behaving."
I thought Suu-san was seriously awesome! lol
I didn't see anything, but I had my palm read and for once I feel like someone guessed something right! lol
I thought it was something like, "What? Suu-san and I are gonna get in a fight?" I wonder why.
Well then!! It's a rather abrupt subject change, but I thought I'd like to show you the lyrics for one chorus in the new song.
Tomorrow (sorry, actually 'today' my time), I'm shooting this song's PV.
Every single one of you can imagine what on earth the song's melody might be... look forward to it. "You were..."
surechigau koibito tachi ga kata yoseai aruiteku
(The lovers pass by each other and bump shoulders as they walk)
tsumetasa ga mi ni shimiru no wa kimi ga inai kara
(The cold is so piercing because you're not here)
kisetsu sae wasureru kurai hoka ni nani mo iranai kurai
(If it gets to the point that the season can be forgotten, then that's the point where there's nothing left)
sou muchuu de kagayaita no wa koi wo shiteita kara
(That which shined so bright in my dreams was the act of loving you, so)
kimi ga saigo no hito da to omotta
(I thought you were the last person)
kimi to saigo no koi wo shitakatta
(I wanted my last love to be with you)
konna hiroi yozora no shita hitori
(Alone under such a vast night sky)
ittai nani wo omoebaii no...
(What in the world am I supposed to think...?)
Written by ayumi hamasaki
This year
7 November 2009 5:30 AM
around the time I rang in my 31st birthday...
I think a change struck me, I was going to change, I wanted to change...
I mean this in a positive way.
The thing I noticed recently is that I actually have changed.
This, again, I mean in a positive way.
Thus far, I've been completely addicted to work.
But this was because I wanted to be. It made me happy.
But I think it was really bad for my private time.
So, now, of course work is as important to me as ever, it's something I have more passion for than anything else, I could absolutely never detach from my job as an entertainer.
But at the same time, things in my private life are becoming important to me as well.
I think that way of thinking is gaining ground in me.
I've started to wish for peace in my heart. Whether just a few or alot of smiling faces, whether just a little bit or alot of kindness, I want to share it with everyone.
If someone thinks that the other people in their lives are more important than they are, they become happier for it. If you can meet someone like that, it's really a miracle.
Even when you trip and fall down, you should get up and keep taking steps forward.
Right now, I feel I have such courage and strength.
That's right! <3
Well then, today I want to post the chorus lyrics for one more new song. "BALLAD"
yume no tochuu de mezameta matsuge ga nureteita
(I woke up in the middle of a dream, and my eyelashes were wet)
oboeteta kotoba wa "onegai ikanai de"
(I remembered the words, "please don't go")
kesshite kawaranai no wa tsunotte yuku kono omoi
(What I can't erase or change is this feeling getting worse)
itsumo yuruganai no wa uyamai shitau kimochi
(What I can never shake is the feeling of yearning for your adoration)
kyou no yuuyake sora wa anata no you ni yasashikute
(Today's sunset sky is as gentle as you)
konda wa yume ja nai to sakebimashita "ikanai de"
(That time, it wasn't a dream, that cry of "don't go.")
Written by ayumi hamsaki
P.S.
7 November 2009 6:07 AM
Today's PV shoot went off without a hitch~!!
But... from my hair & face all the way down my body, I had real diamonds all over me, sparkly sparkly... but diamonds are stones after all, so it felt more like rough-rough than sparkly-sparkly. lol
So anyway, that's how that was~. Look forward to it!☆
Creds: Till den förtjusande Delirium-ZerO@AHS
Michael Jackson
29 October 2009 2:39 AM
I'm really fidgety waiting to go see his movie.
This is Chon-san. Good evening.
Okie dokie, well, it's been said plenty of times, but this is the closest thing to my own original words, because they sound good to me, and I don't want to tell a lie, I don't want to only say pretty things.
And, above all, I want to hear "thank you" more than "I'm sorry," and I want to say it more too.
Having turned 31 recently, I feel I've been reborn, so I'm thinking like that alot lately.
I must say, although I'm probably jumping to things, or maybe I'm not really making a big jump at all (whichever), I've been doing work on the contents for a certain DVD, and even though I knew a little while ago, the moment I know more, the whole world will, but I persuaded myself that "I can't say anything right now" but in the end, I can't wait to write this tomorrow, even though I'm feeling a bit hazy at the moment. So I'm writing.
I record things in this diary for my own sake.
Well, I can write this with no fear of misunderstanding. I really, from the bottom of my heart, am so proud of the cast and my staff, all those strong and great people, who create my shows.
They're the strongest and greatest entertainment group, my life is the shows they help create.
And yet, the strongest piece, the one I hold in the highest, is that I can't compare my shows to anyone else's whenever I think of doing it.
To begin with, comparing myself with someone else is such nonsense, we're all distinct human beings, so you can't compare.
The "something" that I have, someone else will never have it, and I will never have the "something" that someone else has.
This is something that everyone can say about themselves, not just me.
Based on what I've said (or despite it... whatever), the work on this DVD is strange and amusing.
With this show, there's the superior and the junior staff always walking together, the staff we met for the first time, and above all, the usual guests who all together, at any moment, will begin clapping and cheering, honestly enjoying themselves, and that's what allows the show to come into existence.
A staggering amount of human power is able to be gathered, and it's a miraculous moment.
If I leave it as a piece of work, maybe, if I think of it as a piece of work, I think there are so many other forms it could have taken.
Jeez, Chon-san is just rambling to herself now.
Anyway!!!
All of us here are looking towards the end of the year, working very hard day after day, thinking like entertainers, all so we can welcome the lovely new year together with everyone, and we'll be back home to Yoyogi soon so do look forward to it!!!!!!!
And this year too, I'll keep working to fill up as many seats as possible all in one place!!!!!!!!!
Sleep warmly, everyone! <3
I'm singing
30 October 2009 1:10 PM
Getting it done, slowly but surely.
Getting settled in the vocal booth.
Yesterday I was doing really great, but part of the way through, started to cry, overcome with emotion.
Afterwards, I just kept on singing, sweating like crazy, but concentrating very hard, and when recording was done, my entire head was hurting, and to make matters worse, I felt really cold, so I hurried home as quickly as I could.
If I catch a cold now, don't you laugh~~~!!
Anyway, I took some cell phone photos yesterday but I didn't post them here.
So I'm gonna do that right now.
Yesterday's Fashion Check~☆
The fluffy knit cardigan is from Chane-ko-san.*
It has silver threading mixed into it. <3
The studded vest is from NINE.
The pants aren't in the photo, but they're sarouelles** from Alexander McQueen.
The T-Shirt and studded beret are from Tocopaci.
The sunglasses are my hot Ray-Bans, as usual~.
But my number one favorite thing I was wearing that day was the studded beret. ↓
I have to record again today, so I need to get myself coordinated in order to be able to put my feelings in song.☆
Holy crap, October is already over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wheeeeeeeeeee...
Oh well, time's gonna keep on passing by, isn't it?
Even this moment right here will pass.
Seeya later, time---------!
And I finally got on board the train and I'm shaking along with its rhythm.
*I guess she means Chanel? XD
**If you're like me and had to look this up, they're like middle-eastern style pants that are baggy, but more around the hips & thighs, then they're more form-fitting around the lower legs (to different degrees). They're fashionable right now apparently, so I probably look like an idiot having to look it up, but I don't keep up with fashion. Like, at all. So yeah. :P
It was Halloween
1 November 2009 5:50 PM
...wasn't it~?
Yesterday, I was chased by a large crowd of costumed people, and yes they were scary.
But I ran and ran as hard as I could and I got away! LOL
Until I reached a maximum distance from them, I ran. I felt like someone who'd done a very bad thing.
So, we just barely slid into the very last showing.
Yep!
I finally saw it.
I can't write my thoughts.
Because I'm unable to put them into words.
But I will say that when the movie was over, the theater did not brighten.
Because right then I was taken aback when I realized that while I was seeing this "movie," I completely forgot reality. I was completely deluded into thinking I was "there."
It's like I slipped away from my seat, I was leaning forward the whole time.
I really couldn't watch it with an objective eye.
Oh, and I thought I should apologize, I started crying within the first 30 seconds, and then I just wept the whole time and my nose was running and it didn't stop, just tears and tears and more tears, and the people next to me HAD to be annoyed by my "waaah waaah, sniffle sniffle" sounds.
Sorry about that...
Afterwards, the three of us went to go eat some Thai food.
I casually put my stuff on the table, and it ended up being interesting to look at so I took a photo.
Chon-san's bag (BALMAIN) & leather jacket (BALMAIN) & hat (Blumarine) feat. The Disposable Chopsticks.
Isn't the hat cute?
Here's how it looks when I wear it.
(Oh yeah, I dyed my hair black. It's nice, I like it.)
So, right as I finish eating just the right amount of food, the phone rings.
As soon as I answer, I hear "Ayuuu~! Can I come yet???"
By the way, I made no promise to meet up with him. lol
This is who was on the other line☟
It was Mr. Black Shirt. lol
Next to him is a really close friend~♪
And seriously, a succession of Michael Jackson songs were playing in the shop the whole time.
Everyone danced too much, we got all sweaty.
We smiled excessively.
It was the best night ever.
I still can't say goodbye, so.... Thank you, Michael.
Oops!!!
4 November 2009 06:09 AM
It's been a few days, huh~?
I've just been so caught up recording some very good songs~☆
I want everyone to hear them really soooon---------------!!!
The approach for the jacket photos is a little bit different than anything I've done so far... when you combine them with the song itself, the photos are really great, so look forward to them♪
Sooo anywaaay... for my twins' third birthday celebration, my other little babies mustered up some congratulations <3
Here's the cake <3 It's for the dogs <3
It has "Pino <3 Papico" written on it-!! Fun stuff.
And then there was a fight over the cake. lol
I guess that's what happens when you have 7 animals. They're gonna scramble for things. lol
With full tummies, sleeping happily☟
I love them so much, they're growing up too fast for me!<3
I'll join hands with everyone again tomorrow.
Yesterday,
6 November 2009 05:18 AM
with an infinite loop going in my head, I wasn't very good at putting together words to describe something that happened, but on Subalog., Suu-san wrote about it accurately.
The thing about "behaving."
I thought Suu-san was seriously awesome! lol
I didn't see anything, but I had my palm read and for once I feel like someone guessed something right! lol
I thought it was something like, "What? Suu-san and I are gonna get in a fight?" I wonder why.
Well then!! It's a rather abrupt subject change, but I thought I'd like to show you the lyrics for one chorus in the new song.
Tomorrow (sorry, actually 'today' my time), I'm shooting this song's PV.
Every single one of you can imagine what on earth the song's melody might be... look forward to it. "You were..."
surechigau koibito tachi ga kata yoseai aruiteku
(The lovers pass by each other and bump shoulders as they walk)
tsumetasa ga mi ni shimiru no wa kimi ga inai kara
(The cold is so piercing because you're not here)
kisetsu sae wasureru kurai hoka ni nani mo iranai kurai
(If it gets to the point that the season can be forgotten, then that's the point where there's nothing left)
sou muchuu de kagayaita no wa koi wo shiteita kara
(That which shined so bright in my dreams was the act of loving you, so)
kimi ga saigo no hito da to omotta
(I thought you were the last person)
kimi to saigo no koi wo shitakatta
(I wanted my last love to be with you)
konna hiroi yozora no shita hitori
(Alone under such a vast night sky)
ittai nani wo omoebaii no...
(What in the world am I supposed to think...?)
Written by ayumi hamasaki
This year
7 November 2009 5:30 AM
around the time I rang in my 31st birthday...
I think a change struck me, I was going to change, I wanted to change...
I mean this in a positive way.
The thing I noticed recently is that I actually have changed.
This, again, I mean in a positive way.
Thus far, I've been completely addicted to work.
But this was because I wanted to be. It made me happy.
But I think it was really bad for my private time.
So, now, of course work is as important to me as ever, it's something I have more passion for than anything else, I could absolutely never detach from my job as an entertainer.
But at the same time, things in my private life are becoming important to me as well.
I think that way of thinking is gaining ground in me.
I've started to wish for peace in my heart. Whether just a few or alot of smiling faces, whether just a little bit or alot of kindness, I want to share it with everyone.
If someone thinks that the other people in their lives are more important than they are, they become happier for it. If you can meet someone like that, it's really a miracle.
Even when you trip and fall down, you should get up and keep taking steps forward.
Right now, I feel I have such courage and strength.
That's right! <3
Well then, today I want to post the chorus lyrics for one more new song. "BALLAD"
yume no tochuu de mezameta matsuge ga nureteita
(I woke up in the middle of a dream, and my eyelashes were wet)
oboeteta kotoba wa "onegai ikanai de"
(I remembered the words, "please don't go")
kesshite kawaranai no wa tsunotte yuku kono omoi
(What I can't erase or change is this feeling getting worse)
itsumo yuruganai no wa uyamai shitau kimochi
(What I can never shake is the feeling of yearning for your adoration)
kyou no yuuyake sora wa anata no you ni yasashikute
(Today's sunset sky is as gentle as you)
konda wa yume ja nai to sakebimashita "ikanai de"
(That time, it wasn't a dream, that cry of "don't go.")
Written by ayumi hamsaki
P.S.
7 November 2009 6:07 AM
Today's PV shoot went off without a hitch~!!
But... from my hair & face all the way down my body, I had real diamonds all over me, sparkly sparkly... but diamonds are stones after all, so it felt more like rough-rough than sparkly-sparkly. lol
So anyway, that's how that was~. Look forward to it!☆
Creds: Till den förtjusande Delirium-ZerO@AHS
ayu's DIARY: 22/10/2009 - 28/10/2009
Already
22 October 2009 12:04 PM
Yesterday, we were able to do our concert, and the greatness of the sacred ground Yoyogi was REALLY vividly shown to us!!!!!!!
Everyone the whole time was applauding for the band members and dancers and me, and continued cheering until they were hoarse during the seeing off at the end.
This all directly resonated in the hearts of all of us who were there. I truly thank you!!!!!!!!
That is to say,
How did such a Reaction King* session gather, Yoyogi? lol
I'm saying that with alot of power, you see. lol
Gah! Today's the last day so I keep crying and laughing!!!!!!
Anyhow, I'm forgiving myself of all of that, I'm going to the NEXT LEVEL with all of you!!!
We'll all see the scenery there together☆
I needed to get some fighting spirit in me after how I was last night.
This was really surprising so I instinctively had to take a photo with my phone.
So, this got me into a substantial fighting spirit---------!!!!
Is everybody ready-------???!!!!!**
Let's go! Last day---------!!!!!!!!!
We're gonna blow the roof off Yoyogi Stadium.
*Reaction-Oh is a game where you're given a topic or situation and you have to sorta pantomime it. Whoever does best wins. It's sorta like a Whose Line improv comedy game.
**"Minna, junbi wa ii ka?!?" is an exact thing that Ayu says at just about every concert.
Well then
24 October 2009 7:31
My shell has come off, and there's someone else underneath it, and now it's hard to fall asleep. So Chonsan has come online.
Wonder why I feel like this...?
Although Suu-san wrote about the end of the tour, and although Nii-yan wrote about it too, it feels lonely, like I've been pierced with a gaping hole in my heart, and in order to be satiated, I need to feel things like a sense of achievement or accomplishment.
This year's tour, at any rate, became a tour where every facet was specially posed.
It's like.... man, I'm still no good at using my words well.
Oh well, I won't even try for now.
Instead, maybe I'll show you the tour's choreographers in a set list.
Truthfully, we all worked on this with alot of trial and error, so.
Every scene turned out very lovely. I love it.
Alrighty, here we gooo!!!!!!!
01. Pieces of SEVEN
02. RULE -> ZIN
03. UNITE! -> ZIN
04. Disco-munication -> Kayanocchi
05. EnergizE -> Kayanocchi
06. Sunrise -> ZIN (Kayanocchi did the Audience choreography)
07. Load of the SHUGYO -> Maro
08. LOVE 'n' HATE -> Maro
09. identity -> ZIN & Suu-san collaboration
10. In The Corner -> ZIN-san
11. HOPE or PAIN -> Maro
12. GREEN -> Maro
13. Days -> Maro
14. evolution -> ZIN
15. SIGNAL -> Suu-san
16. rollin' -> Suu-san
17. Sparkle -> Suu-san
18. Bridge to the sky -> ZIN
19. NEXT LEVEL -> ZIN
~ENCORE~
20. Curtain call
21. Sunset
22. everywhere nowhere -> ZIN
23. Humming 7/4 -> ZIN
24. Boys & Girls -> ZIN
25. MY ALL -> ZIN
That's how it looks <3
Perhaps it's about what you all expected~???
Alrighty, in conclusion, today's Pino & Papico.
They're lying down in the exact same position. lol
It's seriously WAY too identical, I even whistled to myself. lol
But am I the only person who feels like I'm looking at the inside of an oyster, watching this? lol
Dangeroouuusss~~~
26 October 2009 9:10 AM
Coooooooollllldd--------------------!!!!!
Sslleeeppppyyyyy--------------------!!!!!
I have to go on a shoot now though.
But nooo, it's cold... Ooowwwww...
Ahahahahahahaha.
27 October 2009 6:13 AM
I got home just now.
I feel like running laps around the place!!!!!!!
But I'm already going unreasonably fast, really.
I'm badass!!!!!!!! lol
Well anyway, before I change into a tired Chon-mama in this entry, I'm gonna pass it onto my angels.
Princess Cocoa <3 Isn't she adorable? <3
It looks like she's saying,
"I helped Mama out in the studio too, ya know!♪"
And now the next little angel.
It's Pino-san <3
And he seems like he's saying,
"I'm still like a little baby, always sleepy. Ain't that something?"
Next little angel.
It's Papico-san <3
Who appears to say,
"The thing I'm really into right now is sitting around. Ain't that something?"
But in the end, this is now it turns out.☟
It seems they're dreaming of doing the rollin' dance.
After I left them alone, it turned into this☟
They're all coiled up.
It reminds me of Cirque du Soleil. (And that reminds me, the bathroom is full of burning candles, so I get sleepy going in there since it's such an ultra-soothing space now~♪
O <3 Ya <3 Su <3 Mi <3 (Read that "Sparkle" style)
The sun is already rising.*
*"Mou hi ga noboru ne" -> short lyric from "A Song for XX"
Again,
28 October 2009 7:12 AM
look what time of day it is~.
We're looking towards the new single release right now, once again very busy days, but... Suu-san found the time to update his blog, and Kanako and Minazo are just as energetic as he is, saying things like "That seems like the thing to do-------♪".
It's very typically Chon-san to go to Suu-san's blog and pinpoint things like that. But in addition to "Subalog." he really should write a book on food or something, right----?
The girls know this well. They go there even if they don't want to, you know that???
"Subalog. ~Writings On Philosophy~"
"Subalog. ~Writings On the Bare Necessities~"
It seems it could cover either of those two things. lol
Nice to meet you, I'm this sort of Chon-san.
I've stocked up with tons of candles for the season!!!!!!!!
I got a bunch of Pink Magnolia ones at hanabi* today. <3
It's a basic part of having this job that Chon-san commonly receives numerous gifts from people at well-known brands, and of course this does result in a luxurious feeling, so I truly want to express my gratitude <3
But, as you might expect, to get things I've earned myself, that's also exceptional☆
So, when I'm getting the Pink Magnolia things, even though it's my Mommy's store, you might find this unusual for Chon-san, but I'm just a plain old normal customer, and I make a regular paying purchase. <3
Tomorrow an order is coming to add to these, but this is how many I have today...
I could open a shop. lol
For size comparison, something everyone's showing on their blogs recently.
Chon-san is next in line to use it~!
Nighty-niiiight!☆
*hanabi is the gift shop that Ayu's mother Mariko owns.
Creds: tasking & Deli@AHS
22 October 2009 12:04 PM
Yesterday, we were able to do our concert, and the greatness of the sacred ground Yoyogi was REALLY vividly shown to us!!!!!!!
Everyone the whole time was applauding for the band members and dancers and me, and continued cheering until they were hoarse during the seeing off at the end.
This all directly resonated in the hearts of all of us who were there. I truly thank you!!!!!!!!
That is to say,
How did such a Reaction King* session gather, Yoyogi? lol
I'm saying that with alot of power, you see. lol
Gah! Today's the last day so I keep crying and laughing!!!!!!
Anyhow, I'm forgiving myself of all of that, I'm going to the NEXT LEVEL with all of you!!!
We'll all see the scenery there together☆
I needed to get some fighting spirit in me after how I was last night.
This was really surprising so I instinctively had to take a photo with my phone.
So, this got me into a substantial fighting spirit---------!!!!
Is everybody ready-------???!!!!!**
Let's go! Last day---------!!!!!!!!!
We're gonna blow the roof off Yoyogi Stadium.
*Reaction-Oh is a game where you're given a topic or situation and you have to sorta pantomime it. Whoever does best wins. It's sorta like a Whose Line improv comedy game.
**"Minna, junbi wa ii ka?!?" is an exact thing that Ayu says at just about every concert.
Well then
24 October 2009 7:31
My shell has come off, and there's someone else underneath it, and now it's hard to fall asleep. So Chonsan has come online.
Wonder why I feel like this...?
Although Suu-san wrote about the end of the tour, and although Nii-yan wrote about it too, it feels lonely, like I've been pierced with a gaping hole in my heart, and in order to be satiated, I need to feel things like a sense of achievement or accomplishment.
This year's tour, at any rate, became a tour where every facet was specially posed.
It's like.... man, I'm still no good at using my words well.
Oh well, I won't even try for now.
Instead, maybe I'll show you the tour's choreographers in a set list.
Truthfully, we all worked on this with alot of trial and error, so.
Every scene turned out very lovely. I love it.
Alrighty, here we gooo!!!!!!!
01. Pieces of SEVEN
02. RULE -> ZIN
03. UNITE! -> ZIN
04. Disco-munication -> Kayanocchi
05. EnergizE -> Kayanocchi
06. Sunrise -> ZIN (Kayanocchi did the Audience choreography)
07. Load of the SHUGYO -> Maro
08. LOVE 'n' HATE -> Maro
09. identity -> ZIN & Suu-san collaboration
10. In The Corner -> ZIN-san
11. HOPE or PAIN -> Maro
12. GREEN -> Maro
13. Days -> Maro
14. evolution -> ZIN
15. SIGNAL -> Suu-san
16. rollin' -> Suu-san
17. Sparkle -> Suu-san
18. Bridge to the sky -> ZIN
19. NEXT LEVEL -> ZIN
~ENCORE~
20. Curtain call
21. Sunset
22. everywhere nowhere -> ZIN
23. Humming 7/4 -> ZIN
24. Boys & Girls -> ZIN
25. MY ALL -> ZIN
That's how it looks <3
Perhaps it's about what you all expected~???
Alrighty, in conclusion, today's Pino & Papico.
They're lying down in the exact same position. lol
It's seriously WAY too identical, I even whistled to myself. lol
But am I the only person who feels like I'm looking at the inside of an oyster, watching this? lol
Dangeroouuusss~~~
26 October 2009 9:10 AM
Coooooooollllldd--------------------!!!!!
Sslleeeppppyyyyy--------------------!!!!!
I have to go on a shoot now though.
But nooo, it's cold... Ooowwwww...
Ahahahahahahaha.
27 October 2009 6:13 AM
I got home just now.
I feel like running laps around the place!!!!!!!
But I'm already going unreasonably fast, really.
I'm badass!!!!!!!! lol
Well anyway, before I change into a tired Chon-mama in this entry, I'm gonna pass it onto my angels.
Princess Cocoa <3 Isn't she adorable? <3
It looks like she's saying,
"I helped Mama out in the studio too, ya know!♪"
And now the next little angel.
It's Pino-san <3
And he seems like he's saying,
"I'm still like a little baby, always sleepy. Ain't that something?"
Next little angel.
It's Papico-san <3
Who appears to say,
"The thing I'm really into right now is sitting around. Ain't that something?"
But in the end, this is now it turns out.☟
It seems they're dreaming of doing the rollin' dance.
After I left them alone, it turned into this☟
They're all coiled up.
It reminds me of Cirque du Soleil. (And that reminds me, the bathroom is full of burning candles, so I get sleepy going in there since it's such an ultra-soothing space now~♪
O <3 Ya <3 Su <3 Mi <3 (Read that "Sparkle" style)
The sun is already rising.*
*"Mou hi ga noboru ne" -> short lyric from "A Song for XX"
Again,
28 October 2009 7:12 AM
look what time of day it is~.
We're looking towards the new single release right now, once again very busy days, but... Suu-san found the time to update his blog, and Kanako and Minazo are just as energetic as he is, saying things like "That seems like the thing to do-------♪".
It's very typically Chon-san to go to Suu-san's blog and pinpoint things like that. But in addition to "Subalog." he really should write a book on food or something, right----?
The girls know this well. They go there even if they don't want to, you know that???
"Subalog. ~Writings On Philosophy~"
"Subalog. ~Writings On the Bare Necessities~"
It seems it could cover either of those two things. lol
Nice to meet you, I'm this sort of Chon-san.
I've stocked up with tons of candles for the season!!!!!!!!
I got a bunch of Pink Magnolia ones at hanabi* today. <3
It's a basic part of having this job that Chon-san commonly receives numerous gifts from people at well-known brands, and of course this does result in a luxurious feeling, so I truly want to express my gratitude <3
But, as you might expect, to get things I've earned myself, that's also exceptional☆
So, when I'm getting the Pink Magnolia things, even though it's my Mommy's store, you might find this unusual for Chon-san, but I'm just a plain old normal customer, and I make a regular paying purchase. <3
Tomorrow an order is coming to add to these, but this is how many I have today...
I could open a shop. lol
For size comparison, something everyone's showing on their blogs recently.
Chon-san is next in line to use it~!
Nighty-niiiight!☆
*hanabi is the gift shop that Ayu's mother Mariko owns.
Creds: tasking & Deli@AHS
ayu's DIARY: 16/10/2009 - 21/10/2009
Regarding the new songs,
16 October 2009 4:33 AM
There's all kinds of clamor about it, but...
As you might expect, right now, we have to finish work on the two days in Yoyogi, you know?
Our heads are really in THAT right now.
Since we're trying to put on the perfect show, we can't think of anything else. It's not necessary.
But up until the moment you're on your deathbed, dammit, you'll have said "Wooooowww!!!" and you'll remember how awesome this show turned out!!
It's best that you're able to really experience that sort of show.
One more thing today, we had an interesting rehearsal for this probably wonderful looking show.
For the 11 years that I've had the ability to sing, I've been on my first long, long tour.
Rehearsals began as soon as 2009 started, and there have been inumerable barriers. Sometimes I climb those walls, sometimes I destroy them, and sometimes I just hang my head, but I always gradually move upwards...
Eventually, after the struggle, I get there. The final stop, Yoyogi.
And before I know it, 2009 is already almost over...
This year's tour kept getting additions, too.
This year's tour, I got special offers from overseas, too.
(As for the details there, I gotta wait for the ban to be lifted on talking about it, and then it'll get announced.?)
At any rate, for the time being, I'm focusing on Yoyogi.
I say things like that sometimes, my personality is pretty awkward, but I'm honest even when my brain's not working right. And as long as I have a place I can come home to, the fact is, I know I can work hard & do my best.
Pino & Papico are getting along well again today, snuggling up together.
And my heart is snuggling up with all of you today too.
When they wake up, I'm gonna be smiling. <3
Smooch! <3
Amazing!
20 October 2009 3:59 AM
Good evening, Chonsan here, who made her approach to Yoyogi, feeling like a complete chicken who's going through growing pains.
It's been awhile since I updated~!!!!!!!
The day before Yoyogi, I took things slow & steady, because I wanted to give my mind and body (and of course my voice!!) a rest, but from Fukuoka to here I kept really busy, doing my best on other work~☆
As such, I'm going forward from Fukuoka as gently as possible~.
First of all, I've gotten so many requests for this photo!!
(For everyone who couldn't come to the venue that day, the explanation: everyone gave me surprise congratulations on my birthday, the whole crew together did this commemorative photo~)
Alrighty, Ta-da!!!
Yeah, the photo's been enlarged (Click the thumbnail for full size. --Deli).
Isn't it coooool---------<3 Thank you so much! <3
By the way, if you zoom in, it looks like this.
Alrighty, Ta-da!!
By the way, for some reason my haute couture designer Akira-uji measured the size of the cake backstage.
Chonsan's costumes are always entirely handmade by Akira-uji~<3
So anyway, when you guys see what I recieved for my birthday as a present, you're gonna be all like "You did not seriously get that, did you???"
Actually, Chonsan just said "Whooooooaaa~!!"
Alrighty, Ta-da!!
And now opened up...
Yep!! It's an "ayu ready? COMPLETE BOX" set!!!
Isn't it awesome???
Episode stills are sprinkled all around the outside of it.☆
But I'm too shy to watch even one episode of it.
Someone come watch it with me!!! Give me the courage!!!!!! lol
Well, I'm talking too much, so it's time for today's Fashion! <3 (too much of a jump?)
Chonsan loves leather jackets, I don't even know how many various colors and styles I get every year, but I do get several every year, but this jacket right here is the hottest this season!!!!!!!
It's from BALMAIN.
Not only am I gonna buy ALL my clothes from BALMAIN this season, but ALL my shoes and bags too. BALMAIN ROCKS!!!!!!!
But I got my T-shirt and leggings from Tocopaci.
This T-shirt has cute sleeves that balloon out, but you can't see it in the photo.
The leggings have stars attached to them~. Pretty spiffy <3
I've been wearing this hat alot recently too.
It's from NEW YORK NEW YORK.♪
The pendant & chain I'm holding in my hand here...
I took the photo myself but it still got blurry. lol
That's because it's a cell phone photo. The LUMIX wouldn't do that, ya know.
Alright, let's try it again and get it right this time, Alrighty, Ta-da!!!
You can't really see it that well, but it's a perfume bottle <3
This is from Tocopaci. I fell in love as soon as I saw it. <3
Well it looks as though my time allowance has died, and my Fashion Check must now dissolve, but I can honestly say that I already feel excitement about the show in Yoyogi!
Even better, starting tonight, no matter what, I wanna be able to stay in Yoyogi. lol
If that's impossible...
Someone please hold onto Chonsan and put her to bed <3
Ah, but recently, during bedtime, Papico-san (who doesn't understand the definition of "relaxing time,") will aim at a person's face, jump, and attack it, so it'd have to be someone who can endure that. <3
Yesterday Chonsan got a hard Papico-bungee* to the face, and it gave me a nosebleed. lol
And today, thank you for all of your loving messages!!!!!!!!!!
Tomorrow, the TA home page is getting a renewal, so look forward to that!☆
And then~... what else...
Day after tomorrow, on Yoyogi's first day, the mobile site is opening!!!!!!!!!
So look forward to that too~!☆
I'm getting closer and closer to seeing you guys, huh?
*She said "bungee jump" rather than "jump" to describe Papico's face attack, so "Papico-bungee" is apparently what she calls this behavior.
Here at TA
21 October 2009 3:58 AM
Chonsan here, who's updating after having suddenly burst into tears, due to a surprise attack of excessively beautiful messages from all my friends. Good evening.
I can't use my words very well today, so I'm gonna leave this entry to my babies. They can fix it. <3
Here's Pino-san, happy to be held.
Just past Pino-san, Papico-san.
After awhile, they fall asleep hugging each other. <3
They have such a great relationship~ <3
Tomorrow, in Yoyogi, I'll be smiling the whole time you see me <3
I know my feelings are reaching you.
Creds: tasking & Deli@AHS
16 October 2009 4:33 AM
There's all kinds of clamor about it, but...
As you might expect, right now, we have to finish work on the two days in Yoyogi, you know?
Our heads are really in THAT right now.
Since we're trying to put on the perfect show, we can't think of anything else. It's not necessary.
But up until the moment you're on your deathbed, dammit, you'll have said "Wooooowww!!!" and you'll remember how awesome this show turned out!!
It's best that you're able to really experience that sort of show.
One more thing today, we had an interesting rehearsal for this probably wonderful looking show.
For the 11 years that I've had the ability to sing, I've been on my first long, long tour.
Rehearsals began as soon as 2009 started, and there have been inumerable barriers. Sometimes I climb those walls, sometimes I destroy them, and sometimes I just hang my head, but I always gradually move upwards...
Eventually, after the struggle, I get there. The final stop, Yoyogi.
And before I know it, 2009 is already almost over...
This year's tour kept getting additions, too.
This year's tour, I got special offers from overseas, too.
(As for the details there, I gotta wait for the ban to be lifted on talking about it, and then it'll get announced.?)
At any rate, for the time being, I'm focusing on Yoyogi.
I say things like that sometimes, my personality is pretty awkward, but I'm honest even when my brain's not working right. And as long as I have a place I can come home to, the fact is, I know I can work hard & do my best.
Pino & Papico are getting along well again today, snuggling up together.
And my heart is snuggling up with all of you today too.
When they wake up, I'm gonna be smiling. <3
Smooch! <3
Amazing!
20 October 2009 3:59 AM
Good evening, Chonsan here, who made her approach to Yoyogi, feeling like a complete chicken who's going through growing pains.
It's been awhile since I updated~!!!!!!!
The day before Yoyogi, I took things slow & steady, because I wanted to give my mind and body (and of course my voice!!) a rest, but from Fukuoka to here I kept really busy, doing my best on other work~☆
As such, I'm going forward from Fukuoka as gently as possible~.
First of all, I've gotten so many requests for this photo!!
(For everyone who couldn't come to the venue that day, the explanation: everyone gave me surprise congratulations on my birthday, the whole crew together did this commemorative photo~)
Alrighty, Ta-da!!!
Yeah, the photo's been enlarged (Click the thumbnail for full size. --Deli).
Isn't it coooool---------<3 Thank you so much! <3
By the way, if you zoom in, it looks like this.
Alrighty, Ta-da!!
By the way, for some reason my haute couture designer Akira-uji measured the size of the cake backstage.
Chonsan's costumes are always entirely handmade by Akira-uji~<3
So anyway, when you guys see what I recieved for my birthday as a present, you're gonna be all like "You did not seriously get that, did you???"
Actually, Chonsan just said "Whooooooaaa~!!"
Alrighty, Ta-da!!
And now opened up...
Yep!! It's an "ayu ready? COMPLETE BOX" set!!!
Isn't it awesome???
Episode stills are sprinkled all around the outside of it.☆
But I'm too shy to watch even one episode of it.
Someone come watch it with me!!! Give me the courage!!!!!! lol
Well, I'm talking too much, so it's time for today's Fashion! <3 (too much of a jump?)
Chonsan loves leather jackets, I don't even know how many various colors and styles I get every year, but I do get several every year, but this jacket right here is the hottest this season!!!!!!!
It's from BALMAIN.
Not only am I gonna buy ALL my clothes from BALMAIN this season, but ALL my shoes and bags too. BALMAIN ROCKS!!!!!!!
But I got my T-shirt and leggings from Tocopaci.
This T-shirt has cute sleeves that balloon out, but you can't see it in the photo.
The leggings have stars attached to them~. Pretty spiffy <3
I've been wearing this hat alot recently too.
It's from NEW YORK NEW YORK.♪
The pendant & chain I'm holding in my hand here...
I took the photo myself but it still got blurry. lol
That's because it's a cell phone photo. The LUMIX wouldn't do that, ya know.
Alright, let's try it again and get it right this time, Alrighty, Ta-da!!!
You can't really see it that well, but it's a perfume bottle <3
This is from Tocopaci. I fell in love as soon as I saw it. <3
Well it looks as though my time allowance has died, and my Fashion Check must now dissolve, but I can honestly say that I already feel excitement about the show in Yoyogi!
Even better, starting tonight, no matter what, I wanna be able to stay in Yoyogi. lol
If that's impossible...
Someone please hold onto Chonsan and put her to bed <3
Ah, but recently, during bedtime, Papico-san (who doesn't understand the definition of "relaxing time,") will aim at a person's face, jump, and attack it, so it'd have to be someone who can endure that. <3
Yesterday Chonsan got a hard Papico-bungee* to the face, and it gave me a nosebleed. lol
And today, thank you for all of your loving messages!!!!!!!!!!
Tomorrow, the TA home page is getting a renewal, so look forward to that!☆
And then~... what else...
Day after tomorrow, on Yoyogi's first day, the mobile site is opening!!!!!!!!!
So look forward to that too~!☆
I'm getting closer and closer to seeing you guys, huh?
*She said "bungee jump" rather than "jump" to describe Papico's face attack, so "Papico-bungee" is apparently what she calls this behavior.
Here at TA
21 October 2009 3:58 AM
Chonsan here, who's updating after having suddenly burst into tears, due to a surprise attack of excessively beautiful messages from all my friends. Good evening.
I can't use my words very well today, so I'm gonna leave this entry to my babies. They can fix it. <3
Here's Pino-san, happy to be held.
Just past Pino-san, Papico-san.
After awhile, they fall asleep hugging each other. <3
They have such a great relationship~ <3
Tomorrow, in Yoyogi, I'll be smiling the whole time you see me <3
I know my feelings are reaching you.
Creds: tasking & Deli@AHS
ayu's DIARY: 11/10/2009 - 14/10/2009
On the 10th,
11 October 2009 12:54 PM
I wrote about it in the entry entitled "Some time ago," there were alot of "we want a song!" requests from everyone in TA, I mean there were tons and tons of them.
Since the middle of the night last night, until just awhile ago, even though I was all stressed and feeling like "omg I'm NEVER gonna get this done," I searched through and listened very carefully to every single one of hundreds of demos that I had on hand, searching for the right one, and then...
I found it. And then I made the song.
Now, the next step in the process, which is to be amazed that I was able to make such a song.
Do you guys ever feel that way too?
It was a miracle I was able to finish it so quickly.
Originally, it was planned that I'd have 2 new songs, but it might be 3 songs now☆
They're a totally different type of song, but I could only possibly make these songs as I am right now.
Please look forward to them.
I am just so.... GENKI right now!!!!!!!!!!
I've been immersing myself in making songs so much lately, so together with my much-loved Ane and Oto*, we three came to this much-loved Thai cuisine restaurant to eat & recharge.
The calendar & coathanger above us totally rock.
The power outlet & circuit breaker behind her totally rock too.
This makes it look like we came by bike but we didn't.
This Tibetan** fur coat is sleeveless, but I have additional things to layer on top of each other for when it gets colder. But as it is right now, just putting on this one thing is warm enough.☆
I got it at Tocopaci.
It's like I've only been shopping at Tocopaci recently, so I probably seem like a Tocopaci spy (lol), but actually I go to stores on the street, it's just that my select shop is both domestic and outside Japan and I absolutely love them, so I'm gonna still keep going to Tocopaci. Yup.
Today's bag & sunglasses:
It's a FENDI spangle bag and Ray-Bans.
Lately I don't wear anything but Ray-Bans~. They make me seem mischievous. lol
My shoes are these rocking boots.
The mix of the pipe and tubing totally rocks!
The heel rocks so much.
Looks like a bolt or something? (Not the Olympic runner.)
And my babies too, they're genki.
They might be li'l teeny tiny guys, but they go through life with such strength!
Pino-san, and the camera's view of Papico-san. <3
Shy Choco-san <3
Purin-san, whose special skill is "Sitting still" <3
The Hooligan Princess, Cocoa-san <3
The one who understands me best, Marron <3
I hope today is a wonderful day for all of you...☆
*Literally "older sister and little brother," but in reference to an older girl friend and younger guy friend.
**She just says "CHIBE" here in katakana, so I'm making a guess that it's short for "Tibetan," but I'm honestly not sure.
Just now, after all this time,
13 October 2009 12:22 AM
I have realized that my favorite food ever (and Ane and Oto agree) is just spicy food~. (even though it's so bad for my voice)
And usually, when I go out to eat during my private time, It's almost always Korean, Thai, or Indian food~!
Even then, adding more spices to it is our ID, it seems.
Ah, another ID I don't need. lol
The Chon-san writing this is wondering what to deliver to you tonight, during this break from work.
Incidentally, my huge blond-haired companion is in the middle of working right now.
Ah, when I say blond hair, do I mean black AND blond together?
In my first time meeting him, he was waiting, and he was struggling hard... or so I thought, but that was his usual poker face. (by that I mean "armor").
But I know.
He was always the type to work hard but then shed tears when he thought no one was looking.
By his very nature, he couldn't continue being interested in a person's exterior beauty for very long. Probably only for a second.
The person I think this about - no, the person I KNOW this about - radiates beauty from the inside of course, but he just happens to also sparkle on the outside too.
I could be fascinated by a human being's innermost heart.
I wonder why this Chonsan has these strong sorts of feelings tonight?
At last
13 October 2009 10:06 PM
they came---!! Candles that totally fit the season~!♪
I'm so happyyy--------------♪♪♪
Chon-san is a total candle otaku*, and I collect them all year round, but I only light them at night as you might expect and it is the coolest looking thing ever~.
Lately I've been only using candles when night comes~.
I keep hoping that the daytime won't be long, my eagerness attacks~! lol
I change the sweet-smelling candles out depending on my mood, but as you might expect, they always do smell nice.
According to the brand, there are also candles that don't smell at all.
But VOLUSPA is always right.
Not one thing wrong in all these years.
The scent I'm addicted to recently is Pink Magnolia. <3
I choose the candles' sizes based on where I put them.
Well, the medusa face on this table sure is creepy. lol
In the restroom, I have li'l baby VOLUSPAs all liiiiinnnned up.
Here's the li'l babies with some decorative plants.
This (I should say "the scent") is for the interior.
But even when I don't light them up, just putting them there makes everything smell good. <3
Just surrounding myself with things I like, pretty things, it totally raises my spirits!!!
I feel like I can do anything!!!!!!
Suddenly I get Phone Photo Fever!!!!!!!!!!
This is in the bathroom**~.
I somehow thought I should place shells & stuff around the sink. lol
And isn't this awesome?
Look closely until you see the necklace~.
The little decorative flowers & shells & this and everything, they were ordered from my Mommy's place.
And then my power stones, also never wrong.
There are a bunch of these babies all over the house too.
For example, here's Mr. Amethyst.
And also Ms. Crystal. (Not Christel***.)
There's more too <3
Oh that reminds me, I forgot to upload pictures of this baby~!!
Alrighty, ta-da!!!!!!!!
Satsuki-chan even decorated this single-lens reflex camera.
WTF, is there no end to where we'll go with this decorating stuff? lol
After all, we could go the whole way up to the car, right? lol
What do you think? Satsuki, get your decorating army together!! lol
By the way, it looks like this when you take the big lens off.
Teeheehee <3
I just noticed, I've strayed quite a bit from talking about the candles, but I'm having fun anyway so whatever, right? ♪
So, again, straying from what I'm saying, but because of Subalog I've been missing New York lately.
I first went there about.... 15 years ago.
Time sure does fly. I mean, I'm 31 now. lol
Ah!! My goodness!!! Just from that, I'm suddenly wanting to reminisce and look at photos of New York.
Yeah, the view from the room that I always like to stay in.
Central paaarrrkk♪ I wanna walk there now--------!!
Okay, next picture, Ta-da!
A cake that says "Welcome home", with America photos♪ This makes me happy.
Okay, next picture, Ta-da!
American Museum of Natural History!!
We went here every day.
Throughout the day we'd like, turn into elementary schoolers and play around.
Okay, next picture, Ta-da!
And we absolutely HAD go to F.A.O.schwarz (a really old & well-known toy store☆).
Of course I had to buy a gigantic plushie.
Hey look, I have black hair here! lol
That's it then, I know I'm kinda ending it without a proper conclusion.
Days like that do happen~♪
*Just for the record, yes, she actually used the phrase "candle otaku."
**She used the word "restroom" in katakana earlier, and "bathroom" here, implying that these are two different rooms in her house. Just thought I'd clarify that.
***"KURISTERU" as opposed to "KURISTARU". Might be a reference to announcer Christel Takigawa, or perhaps tarento Christelle Ciari. One of the two. Or maybe it's a brand name. Or maybe it's not referring to anything specific, just a generic name. I dunno.
Hmmmm,
14 October 2009 12:13 AM
My explanation seems to have been insufficient, so I'm back!!
That black hair is from when I was in New York and was taking photos there.
My hair isn't black right now~.
I'm still touring so I can't change my hair color at the moment.
That is all!☆
Creds: tasking & Deli@AHS
11 October 2009 12:54 PM
I wrote about it in the entry entitled "Some time ago," there were alot of "we want a song!" requests from everyone in TA, I mean there were tons and tons of them.
Since the middle of the night last night, until just awhile ago, even though I was all stressed and feeling like "omg I'm NEVER gonna get this done," I searched through and listened very carefully to every single one of hundreds of demos that I had on hand, searching for the right one, and then...
I found it. And then I made the song.
Now, the next step in the process, which is to be amazed that I was able to make such a song.
Do you guys ever feel that way too?
It was a miracle I was able to finish it so quickly.
Originally, it was planned that I'd have 2 new songs, but it might be 3 songs now☆
They're a totally different type of song, but I could only possibly make these songs as I am right now.
Please look forward to them.
I am just so.... GENKI right now!!!!!!!!!!
I've been immersing myself in making songs so much lately, so together with my much-loved Ane and Oto*, we three came to this much-loved Thai cuisine restaurant to eat & recharge.
The calendar & coathanger above us totally rock.
The power outlet & circuit breaker behind her totally rock too.
This makes it look like we came by bike but we didn't.
This Tibetan** fur coat is sleeveless, but I have additional things to layer on top of each other for when it gets colder. But as it is right now, just putting on this one thing is warm enough.☆
I got it at Tocopaci.
It's like I've only been shopping at Tocopaci recently, so I probably seem like a Tocopaci spy (lol), but actually I go to stores on the street, it's just that my select shop is both domestic and outside Japan and I absolutely love them, so I'm gonna still keep going to Tocopaci. Yup.
Today's bag & sunglasses:
It's a FENDI spangle bag and Ray-Bans.
Lately I don't wear anything but Ray-Bans~. They make me seem mischievous. lol
My shoes are these rocking boots.
The mix of the pipe and tubing totally rocks!
The heel rocks so much.
Looks like a bolt or something? (Not the Olympic runner.)
And my babies too, they're genki.
They might be li'l teeny tiny guys, but they go through life with such strength!
Pino-san, and the camera's view of Papico-san. <3
Shy Choco-san <3
Purin-san, whose special skill is "Sitting still" <3
The Hooligan Princess, Cocoa-san <3
The one who understands me best, Marron <3
I hope today is a wonderful day for all of you...☆
*Literally "older sister and little brother," but in reference to an older girl friend and younger guy friend.
**She just says "CHIBE" here in katakana, so I'm making a guess that it's short for "Tibetan," but I'm honestly not sure.
Just now, after all this time,
13 October 2009 12:22 AM
I have realized that my favorite food ever (and Ane and Oto agree) is just spicy food~. (even though it's so bad for my voice)
And usually, when I go out to eat during my private time, It's almost always Korean, Thai, or Indian food~!
Even then, adding more spices to it is our ID, it seems.
Ah, another ID I don't need. lol
The Chon-san writing this is wondering what to deliver to you tonight, during this break from work.
Incidentally, my huge blond-haired companion is in the middle of working right now.
Ah, when I say blond hair, do I mean black AND blond together?
In my first time meeting him, he was waiting, and he was struggling hard... or so I thought, but that was his usual poker face. (by that I mean "armor").
But I know.
He was always the type to work hard but then shed tears when he thought no one was looking.
By his very nature, he couldn't continue being interested in a person's exterior beauty for very long. Probably only for a second.
The person I think this about - no, the person I KNOW this about - radiates beauty from the inside of course, but he just happens to also sparkle on the outside too.
I could be fascinated by a human being's innermost heart.
I wonder why this Chonsan has these strong sorts of feelings tonight?
At last
13 October 2009 10:06 PM
they came---!! Candles that totally fit the season~!♪
I'm so happyyy--------------♪♪♪
Chon-san is a total candle otaku*, and I collect them all year round, but I only light them at night as you might expect and it is the coolest looking thing ever~.
Lately I've been only using candles when night comes~.
I keep hoping that the daytime won't be long, my eagerness attacks~! lol
I change the sweet-smelling candles out depending on my mood, but as you might expect, they always do smell nice.
According to the brand, there are also candles that don't smell at all.
But VOLUSPA is always right.
Not one thing wrong in all these years.
The scent I'm addicted to recently is Pink Magnolia. <3
I choose the candles' sizes based on where I put them.
Well, the medusa face on this table sure is creepy. lol
In the restroom, I have li'l baby VOLUSPAs all liiiiinnnned up.
Here's the li'l babies with some decorative plants.
This (I should say "the scent") is for the interior.
But even when I don't light them up, just putting them there makes everything smell good. <3
Just surrounding myself with things I like, pretty things, it totally raises my spirits!!!
I feel like I can do anything!!!!!!
Suddenly I get Phone Photo Fever!!!!!!!!!!
This is in the bathroom**~.
I somehow thought I should place shells & stuff around the sink. lol
And isn't this awesome?
Look closely until you see the necklace~.
The little decorative flowers & shells & this and everything, they were ordered from my Mommy's place.
And then my power stones, also never wrong.
There are a bunch of these babies all over the house too.
For example, here's Mr. Amethyst.
And also Ms. Crystal. (Not Christel***.)
There's more too <3
Oh that reminds me, I forgot to upload pictures of this baby~!!
Alrighty, ta-da!!!!!!!!
Satsuki-chan even decorated this single-lens reflex camera.
WTF, is there no end to where we'll go with this decorating stuff? lol
After all, we could go the whole way up to the car, right? lol
What do you think? Satsuki, get your decorating army together!! lol
By the way, it looks like this when you take the big lens off.
Teeheehee <3
I just noticed, I've strayed quite a bit from talking about the candles, but I'm having fun anyway so whatever, right? ♪
So, again, straying from what I'm saying, but because of Subalog I've been missing New York lately.
I first went there about.... 15 years ago.
Time sure does fly. I mean, I'm 31 now. lol
Ah!! My goodness!!! Just from that, I'm suddenly wanting to reminisce and look at photos of New York.
Yeah, the view from the room that I always like to stay in.
Central paaarrrkk♪ I wanna walk there now--------!!
Okay, next picture, Ta-da!
A cake that says "Welcome home", with America photos♪ This makes me happy.
Okay, next picture, Ta-da!
American Museum of Natural History!!
We went here every day.
Throughout the day we'd like, turn into elementary schoolers and play around.
Okay, next picture, Ta-da!
And we absolutely HAD go to F.A.O.schwarz (a really old & well-known toy store☆).
Of course I had to buy a gigantic plushie.
Hey look, I have black hair here! lol
That's it then, I know I'm kinda ending it without a proper conclusion.
Days like that do happen~♪
*Just for the record, yes, she actually used the phrase "candle otaku."
**She used the word "restroom" in katakana earlier, and "bathroom" here, implying that these are two different rooms in her house. Just thought I'd clarify that.
***"KURISTERU" as opposed to "KURISTARU". Might be a reference to announcer Christel Takigawa, or perhaps tarento Christelle Ciari. One of the two. Or maybe it's a brand name. Or maybe it's not referring to anything specific, just a generic name. I dunno.
Hmmmm,
14 October 2009 12:13 AM
My explanation seems to have been insufficient, so I'm back!!
That black hair is from when I was in New York and was taking photos there.
My hair isn't black right now~.
I'm still touring so I can't change my hair color at the moment.
That is all!☆
Creds: tasking & Deli@AHS
ayu's DIARY: 9/10/2009 - 10/10/2009
One Year Ago
9 October 2009 4:11 PM
A year ago today, at this time, I wrote and posted this entry.
Everyone please look at the sky for a little while, remember that day, and think of him.
[270] Thank you.
9 October 2008 (Thurs) 3:59 PM
Everyone, for gladly giving me the thing I wished for, I thank you.
And, for sending so many messages to him, thank you.
About one hour ago, his long, long fight ended.
I don't know how to put it into comprehensible words now, but I do think I need to say it to everyone, so here I am.
All of everyone's kind thoughts have been sent to his family.
I'm sure he'll be able to read them up in Heaven.
In Those Days
9 October 2009 4:33 PM
I'm posting what I wrote back then.
Our red bracelets shine on our arms even today.
Right, Tsuriko?
[267] Just now,
8 October 2008 (Wed) 12:16 AM
I recieved contact from a friend of mine who is fighting a battle at the end of his life.
Around this time last year, he suddenly struck ill and learned that he only had a short time to live, but he crossed over from despair to hope and has been constantly fighting since then.
And everyone in his family, just as he has, have changed in the days since, living with patience and strength.
The last day I saw him was April 8th.
There was not a single strand left of his long hair, and his body had become so very thin, but he told the hospital no, and went to Yoyogi together with his mother.
He frantically did his best to be cordial to everyone, all the while taking care of his mother, and when he saw me, he gave me a hug, sobbed loudly, and then said "I'm doing my best," and returned to his usual smiling face.
So much has happened since then.
So, I've fought to "do my best" for the last ten minutes, but everything inside me is so messed up.
I, him, and one other friend, the three of us together all wear red bracelets that are shining on our arms even now, and that third friend has been informed.
She's by his side right now.
As for me... I think it's best for him to be in a peaceful environment, and I'm pretty sure his family wants that for him too, so I'm not there.
In such times, to be completely honest, I become very unpleasant to be around.
But the bracelet I'm wearing right now will shine on my arm for a long time!!!!!
I'm sorry for being like this today...
"Surely I am walking and I am smiling and I am breathing
Even having innocent conversation
Naturally I thought it would continue this way."*
[268] Yesterday
8 October 2008 (Wed) 7:46 PM
After what I posted, ever since, and even now too, messages from everyone have continued to come in.
I think that I'm definitely becoming as strong as him thanks to all of your messages.
But he is still fighting at the moment.
The fact that he's able to is a miracle.
The harshest part is that he's had to show us this miracle with his own body.
I'm thinking very clearly right now. As I am right now, I am an able person.
Because I have been given the gift of existence, there are things I can do.
Please, tonight, pray for a miracle to happen between today and tomorrow.
For thinking of him tomorrow, you have my gratitude.
Thank you all.
[269] Please
9 October 2008 (Thurs) 2:58 AM
I've come back to ask something of all of you.
The amount of messages from everyone is so huge, they're all packed with so much power, I think I'd like to deliver them all to him.
But given the circumstances, everyone has written so much that it's not really possible to make copies.
Would it be a good idea for me to take the messages that we're collecting over to him?
Tomorrow and the day after, keep writing messages as long as you can keep sending your power, as long as he keeps fighting, and I will deliver it.
Please let me know what you think, everyone.
After this, I wrote the entry I posted here earlier.
Everyone was so kind as to send an inumerable amount of messages back then. Right about now, I think he's probably reading them again.
Perhaps he is smiling calmly.
*Lyrics from "Life".
Continuation
9 October 2009 5:14 PM
These are my last writings from that time.
At the end, there is a new beginning.
[271] Tomorrow
11 October 2008 (Sat) 1:04 AM
In the morning, I'll print out everyone's messages, and I'll carry them to him.
As for me, right now, I'm one with all of you, and I have the same wish, and I'm able to continue praying, and I truly have so much gratitude for all my comrades in TA, and I've cried time and time again.
Although we couldn't possibly explain them well, our feelings can be heard if we use our words.
I think we're definitely all connected.
He is connected to me, to us all, and he's taught us one thing.
Let's all go together, treating each and every moment as a precious gift. Let's walk at the same speed.
Let's live, putting our whole hearts into surviving.
[272] As promised
12 October 2008 (Sun) 5:00 AM
I went to deliver all of your messages!
Once I actually printed them out, it was a huge stack, and I took them to his mother, and she burst into tears the moment she saw them. She said she felt so fortunate.
For saying so many precious things to him, she said she was "truly grateful..." to me and to all of you.
Afterwards, she placed them with him, together with some flowers.
This morning, his mother told me that at the very end, he apparently said to her, "I want to listen to 'Life'." He couldn't breathe properly by then, but he forced off his oxygen mask and said that.
This was so unexpected, I was just a mess hearing it. I don't remember the story clearly, but I was so grateful to hear this.
A song I had made.
It's a song inside me, my own, and there is evidence that he lived, thanks to him saying that.
And then, even while I was sleeping, KAZ printed out everyone in TA's messages, and I truly thank him. It was enormous work, but, in order for me to deliver everyone's thoughts without fail, he kept working until it was finished, and so I was able to tell him, "I'm so relieved!!"...
TA is really the best.
And... all of us here have to keep walking forward, and our thoughts are pointed towards Shanghai.
During this trip to Shanghai, of course we're doing a concert there, and we're filming the PV for the new song I mentioned before, "GREEN."
Peco & Zin are doing the choreography.
Me & my dancers are getting into our fighting spirit, like dancing warriors.
This will be one more extremely wonderful piece of work to remember, so I'm really looking forward to it.
I want to share something with everyone again.
Please look forward to it.
Let's wholeheartedly raise our heads and keep going. Alright!!!
Some time ago...
10 October 2009 3:29 AM
I couldn't stop the outpour of emotion, and I did all those successive updates...
But, unexpectedly, there are alot of people who recently became members of TA, I have discovered, and important things were taught, and "Thank You" was said.
The ring of members of TA has rapidly increased over the course of this year, in a blink of the eye it's grown, and I think we've become connected in a very strong, deep way.
This makes me somehow so happy.
After those posts, some people, worrying about me, sent me messages, but I am completely okay!!!!
I'm smiling with all my heart.
I'm crying with all my heart.
I'm living with all my heart.
You know?
Yesterday, I went to the same place as when I went drinking together with Bacchi for the first time.
I was working for all the time we were friends, and in my private life, we went on trips together, but even after all those years, I never forgot the first place Bacchi and I went to.
Cuz at that time, there was alot of tension, and I didn't really get it at the time, but then when we were talking, facing each other, I was sitting there and that guy threw up on me. lol
I think he said "I like yoooouuu~". No, I'm serious.
Aw man, he just rolled on the floor laughing.
Well, my clothes and shoes were stained with vomit though.
Bacchi, of course, stunk of of vomit and it would not go away.
When I remember this sort of thing, I'm not immersed in sadness, and even yesterday I was smiling quite a bit.
I remember how I envied Bacchi, and I smile.
And Bacchi is smiling too, absolutely.
He's doing fine, I know it. We're doing fine, smiling together.
He's saying stuff like "Look at you, writing this stuff~", even now digging into me like that, I know it. He was always cute & cool like that.
But to everyone in TA who comes here, it wasn't painful. If there's someone out there who wants to escape, who wants to throw it all away, how about thinking of it this way.
The today that YOU feel like you want to abandon is the tomorrow that someone elsewhere didn't give up on.
The today that YOU feel has defeated you is the tomorrow that someone elsewhere fought to defeat.
Keep in mind, these are just my thoughts, so I couldn't tell you if they're correct or incorrect.
But I know this for sure. You are not alone. There's no reason to be afraid. Because I'm here.
Even if all you want is to give up, I'm not letting go of your hand.
And even if all you want is to give up, I'm confident that with courage, you can fix whatever's happened.
It's alright.
Creds: tasking & Deli@AHS
9 October 2009 4:11 PM
A year ago today, at this time, I wrote and posted this entry.
Everyone please look at the sky for a little while, remember that day, and think of him.
[270] Thank you.
9 October 2008 (Thurs) 3:59 PM
Everyone, for gladly giving me the thing I wished for, I thank you.
And, for sending so many messages to him, thank you.
About one hour ago, his long, long fight ended.
I don't know how to put it into comprehensible words now, but I do think I need to say it to everyone, so here I am.
All of everyone's kind thoughts have been sent to his family.
I'm sure he'll be able to read them up in Heaven.
In Those Days
9 October 2009 4:33 PM
I'm posting what I wrote back then.
Our red bracelets shine on our arms even today.
Right, Tsuriko?
[267] Just now,
8 October 2008 (Wed) 12:16 AM
I recieved contact from a friend of mine who is fighting a battle at the end of his life.
Around this time last year, he suddenly struck ill and learned that he only had a short time to live, but he crossed over from despair to hope and has been constantly fighting since then.
And everyone in his family, just as he has, have changed in the days since, living with patience and strength.
The last day I saw him was April 8th.
There was not a single strand left of his long hair, and his body had become so very thin, but he told the hospital no, and went to Yoyogi together with his mother.
He frantically did his best to be cordial to everyone, all the while taking care of his mother, and when he saw me, he gave me a hug, sobbed loudly, and then said "I'm doing my best," and returned to his usual smiling face.
So much has happened since then.
So, I've fought to "do my best" for the last ten minutes, but everything inside me is so messed up.
I, him, and one other friend, the three of us together all wear red bracelets that are shining on our arms even now, and that third friend has been informed.
She's by his side right now.
As for me... I think it's best for him to be in a peaceful environment, and I'm pretty sure his family wants that for him too, so I'm not there.
In such times, to be completely honest, I become very unpleasant to be around.
But the bracelet I'm wearing right now will shine on my arm for a long time!!!!!
I'm sorry for being like this today...
"Surely I am walking and I am smiling and I am breathing
Even having innocent conversation
Naturally I thought it would continue this way."*
[268] Yesterday
8 October 2008 (Wed) 7:46 PM
After what I posted, ever since, and even now too, messages from everyone have continued to come in.
I think that I'm definitely becoming as strong as him thanks to all of your messages.
But he is still fighting at the moment.
The fact that he's able to is a miracle.
The harshest part is that he's had to show us this miracle with his own body.
I'm thinking very clearly right now. As I am right now, I am an able person.
Because I have been given the gift of existence, there are things I can do.
Please, tonight, pray for a miracle to happen between today and tomorrow.
For thinking of him tomorrow, you have my gratitude.
Thank you all.
[269] Please
9 October 2008 (Thurs) 2:58 AM
I've come back to ask something of all of you.
The amount of messages from everyone is so huge, they're all packed with so much power, I think I'd like to deliver them all to him.
But given the circumstances, everyone has written so much that it's not really possible to make copies.
Would it be a good idea for me to take the messages that we're collecting over to him?
Tomorrow and the day after, keep writing messages as long as you can keep sending your power, as long as he keeps fighting, and I will deliver it.
Please let me know what you think, everyone.
After this, I wrote the entry I posted here earlier.
Everyone was so kind as to send an inumerable amount of messages back then. Right about now, I think he's probably reading them again.
Perhaps he is smiling calmly.
*Lyrics from "Life".
Continuation
9 October 2009 5:14 PM
These are my last writings from that time.
At the end, there is a new beginning.
[271] Tomorrow
11 October 2008 (Sat) 1:04 AM
In the morning, I'll print out everyone's messages, and I'll carry them to him.
As for me, right now, I'm one with all of you, and I have the same wish, and I'm able to continue praying, and I truly have so much gratitude for all my comrades in TA, and I've cried time and time again.
Although we couldn't possibly explain them well, our feelings can be heard if we use our words.
I think we're definitely all connected.
He is connected to me, to us all, and he's taught us one thing.
Let's all go together, treating each and every moment as a precious gift. Let's walk at the same speed.
Let's live, putting our whole hearts into surviving.
[272] As promised
12 October 2008 (Sun) 5:00 AM
I went to deliver all of your messages!
Once I actually printed them out, it was a huge stack, and I took them to his mother, and she burst into tears the moment she saw them. She said she felt so fortunate.
For saying so many precious things to him, she said she was "truly grateful..." to me and to all of you.
Afterwards, she placed them with him, together with some flowers.
This morning, his mother told me that at the very end, he apparently said to her, "I want to listen to 'Life'." He couldn't breathe properly by then, but he forced off his oxygen mask and said that.
This was so unexpected, I was just a mess hearing it. I don't remember the story clearly, but I was so grateful to hear this.
A song I had made.
It's a song inside me, my own, and there is evidence that he lived, thanks to him saying that.
And then, even while I was sleeping, KAZ printed out everyone in TA's messages, and I truly thank him. It was enormous work, but, in order for me to deliver everyone's thoughts without fail, he kept working until it was finished, and so I was able to tell him, "I'm so relieved!!"...
TA is really the best.
And... all of us here have to keep walking forward, and our thoughts are pointed towards Shanghai.
During this trip to Shanghai, of course we're doing a concert there, and we're filming the PV for the new song I mentioned before, "GREEN."
Peco & Zin are doing the choreography.
Me & my dancers are getting into our fighting spirit, like dancing warriors.
This will be one more extremely wonderful piece of work to remember, so I'm really looking forward to it.
I want to share something with everyone again.
Please look forward to it.
Let's wholeheartedly raise our heads and keep going. Alright!!!
Some time ago...
10 October 2009 3:29 AM
I couldn't stop the outpour of emotion, and I did all those successive updates...
But, unexpectedly, there are alot of people who recently became members of TA, I have discovered, and important things were taught, and "Thank You" was said.
The ring of members of TA has rapidly increased over the course of this year, in a blink of the eye it's grown, and I think we've become connected in a very strong, deep way.
This makes me somehow so happy.
After those posts, some people, worrying about me, sent me messages, but I am completely okay!!!!
I'm smiling with all my heart.
I'm crying with all my heart.
I'm living with all my heart.
You know?
Yesterday, I went to the same place as when I went drinking together with Bacchi for the first time.
I was working for all the time we were friends, and in my private life, we went on trips together, but even after all those years, I never forgot the first place Bacchi and I went to.
Cuz at that time, there was alot of tension, and I didn't really get it at the time, but then when we were talking, facing each other, I was sitting there and that guy threw up on me. lol
I think he said "I like yoooouuu~". No, I'm serious.
Aw man, he just rolled on the floor laughing.
Well, my clothes and shoes were stained with vomit though.
Bacchi, of course, stunk of of vomit and it would not go away.
When I remember this sort of thing, I'm not immersed in sadness, and even yesterday I was smiling quite a bit.
I remember how I envied Bacchi, and I smile.
And Bacchi is smiling too, absolutely.
He's doing fine, I know it. We're doing fine, smiling together.
He's saying stuff like "Look at you, writing this stuff~", even now digging into me like that, I know it. He was always cute & cool like that.
But to everyone in TA who comes here, it wasn't painful. If there's someone out there who wants to escape, who wants to throw it all away, how about thinking of it this way.
The today that YOU feel like you want to abandon is the tomorrow that someone elsewhere didn't give up on.
The today that YOU feel has defeated you is the tomorrow that someone elsewhere fought to defeat.
Keep in mind, these are just my thoughts, so I couldn't tell you if they're correct or incorrect.
But I know this for sure. You are not alone. There's no reason to be afraid. Because I'm here.
Even if all you want is to give up, I'm not letting go of your hand.
And even if all you want is to give up, I'm confident that with courage, you can fix whatever's happened.
It's alright.
Creds: tasking & Deli@AHS
ayu's DIARY: 2/10/2009 - 7/10/2009
Här kommer några meddelanden där Ayu skriver lite om sin födelsedag, visar upp bilder på henne när hon gosar med de nya valparna och hon har även en stor glädjande nyhet precis i slutet. ^__^
Soooooooo many
2 October 2009 1:22 PM
kind messages, I truly truly thank you! <3
I'm going to hold back a bit during performances tomorrow and the day after, my excuse being "birthday." Of course, with my personality being what it is, putting on the best show possible for you guys has top priority, but making too many "waah waah!" noises would be too taxing on my voice really. I wouldn't be able to put on a convincing performance for you, and that wouldn't be cool at all. I stayed with my babies in the house yesterday, and as soon as it hit midnight, everyone started rapidly sending me messages! My cell phone just kept on ringing in real time as they came, but I was still able to read them.~<3
So my new family members were encircled by extremely lively little babies, and Chon-mama passed the time idly as a sumo wrestling official. <3
And today might be my actual birthday, sure, but until tonight, my schedule is packed!!!
But since everyone on ayu's staff, who I love, will be around, I'm happy <3
Of course, there's still more to do, I can't just watch the house all day, so Papico & Pino are coming with me to work! <3
But it seems our work isn't anywhere near over until our last moments in Fukuoka, so I can't meet up with everyone which is really disappointing, but...
Tomorrow at about noon-ish, I'll be going (ah, it's my hometown, so "coming"* maybe?), so tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow, for two days, everyone's going to have the best time together!!
We'll be standing up on that stage together, but surely, everyone there will really be one of us, and you'll power us up!!! We won't mess up!!!!! They'll be an unforgettable two days☆
Well, Chon-mama has to head to work with her babies now.
Every year KAZ hands it to me, all the messages from everyone in TA compiled into a big present~<3
When I recieve them, I always read them very carefully.~<3
And no matter what, I still cry "boohoohoo" every year. lol
*The verbs for going somewhere and going back home are different in japanese. I couldn't think of a way to translate that well in english.
Cowardly
6 October 2009 12:53 AM
Yeah, I think that word is the most sufficient to describe my current state.
Alright then, do~mo, konbanwa, I'm a coward.
Since I haven't been able to write anything simple or profound or powerful over the last few days, and looking back would take too much care and time, today, like a coward, I'm going to give you all a course on how to make the distinction between Pino-san and Papico-san!☆
Okay so, first off, here's Pino-san. Ta-da!
Moving on, Papico-san. Ta-da!
Yep, you can already see it, can't you?
That's right - Papico-san's age of 2 months doesn't seem right given his body size.
His body fits in Marron's food dish (the biggest of all of the food dishes) and he has memorized a technique for snatching his food.
Pino, however, fits in my hand~.
Every day, they just walk wherever, having great adventures here in the house.
Of course these two aren't twin sisters, they're twin brothers. <3
Well, I'm working on a new song soon.... actually I should say that I better get started on it very very quickly!!!!!!!
Why do I always put things off till the last minute, I wonder...? lol
Today,
7 October 2009 1:20 AM
...Actually, I've been working on the song to the point where today has now become yesterday, maybe, but honestly, I don't really know.
Well, it hasn't exactly been smooth sailing, but the overall image is very concrete now, and usually, I work in a straight shot until everything's all finished. I can't do anything else during that time though.
Today, I took a rest every now and then, but I still made progress.
First, I looked at all the audience POV videos of Fukuoka. Once that was done, I watched the producer POV, looking at fine details for things that can be improved for the shows in Yoyogi. All finished!♪All good!♪
So, after that, I took the time to check out all the presents and letters and messages and everything that sooooo many people gave me over the course of my birthday week.
Afterwards, I got this from KAZ.
All the messages from everyone in TA <3
The back looks like this <3
It's enough to make you cry, huh?
So this & that got done, and here yesterday I said that I had stuff I could write about but I was thinking I wanted to keep the words to myself, but I'm thinking "that's wrong~."
Words can't be laid into a picture frame, right? I thought.
But still, if I can say it, we're coming up to the last city of the tour, and ever since I started planning for this tour, I couldn't have imagined how much these shows would evolve into something so wonderful, and we're bringing the tour to a close with the shows in such perfect form.
So now we turn straight towards the goal of Yoyogi, not lost at all.
I truly thank you.
Once I got home, Papico turned into the most codependent person ever.
At least I thought so, but my kiss was denied! What the hey?
With a side glance from far away, Pino sees this, but he's doing his own thing.
He decided to lie down. Not interesting enough for you, eh?
He looks like that, and I just become so impossibly happy.
As usual, I can't reach something if it's out of my reach, but
This 31 year old is making a crazy good song.☆
Questions
7 October 2009 10:27 PM
I got alot of them, so I came by for a sec~.
I wore this when returning home from Fukuoka Airport. It's a hat with gray stars on it that you can get from Toco Pacific*.☆
It comes in different colors, I have a red one too.☆
The T-shirt is a Lafine & Tocopaci collaboration tee.☆
I digress, but most recently I got this really hot strap through my connection to Tocopaci.
I think you can order it from Tocopaci.
Chonsan's appearance has been way too much about cuteness lately, but I just gotta use Pinky here.
That right there, when I couldn't find it when I was looking for it, it was like I beaten down by rain all day. (I'm serious! lol)
Saying,
I STILL can't find it!!
Anyway, I have to get back to work. Booooo.
When I have time, I'll upload lots more photos & fashion checks for you though~!!!!!!!!
*She abbreviates this as "TOKOPASHI" the whole entry, so I put Tocopaci there for the rest of the entry. :)
Creds: tasking & Deli@AHS
Soooooooo many
2 October 2009 1:22 PM
kind messages, I truly truly thank you! <3
I'm going to hold back a bit during performances tomorrow and the day after, my excuse being "birthday." Of course, with my personality being what it is, putting on the best show possible for you guys has top priority, but making too many "waah waah!" noises would be too taxing on my voice really. I wouldn't be able to put on a convincing performance for you, and that wouldn't be cool at all. I stayed with my babies in the house yesterday, and as soon as it hit midnight, everyone started rapidly sending me messages! My cell phone just kept on ringing in real time as they came, but I was still able to read them.~<3
So my new family members were encircled by extremely lively little babies, and Chon-mama passed the time idly as a sumo wrestling official. <3
And today might be my actual birthday, sure, but until tonight, my schedule is packed!!!
But since everyone on ayu's staff, who I love, will be around, I'm happy <3
Of course, there's still more to do, I can't just watch the house all day, so Papico & Pino are coming with me to work! <3
But it seems our work isn't anywhere near over until our last moments in Fukuoka, so I can't meet up with everyone which is really disappointing, but...
Tomorrow at about noon-ish, I'll be going (ah, it's my hometown, so "coming"* maybe?), so tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow, for two days, everyone's going to have the best time together!!
We'll be standing up on that stage together, but surely, everyone there will really be one of us, and you'll power us up!!! We won't mess up!!!!! They'll be an unforgettable two days☆
Well, Chon-mama has to head to work with her babies now.
Every year KAZ hands it to me, all the messages from everyone in TA compiled into a big present~<3
When I recieve them, I always read them very carefully.~<3
And no matter what, I still cry "boohoohoo" every year. lol
*The verbs for going somewhere and going back home are different in japanese. I couldn't think of a way to translate that well in english.
Cowardly
6 October 2009 12:53 AM
Yeah, I think that word is the most sufficient to describe my current state.
Alright then, do~mo, konbanwa, I'm a coward.
Since I haven't been able to write anything simple or profound or powerful over the last few days, and looking back would take too much care and time, today, like a coward, I'm going to give you all a course on how to make the distinction between Pino-san and Papico-san!☆
Okay so, first off, here's Pino-san. Ta-da!
Moving on, Papico-san. Ta-da!
Yep, you can already see it, can't you?
That's right - Papico-san's age of 2 months doesn't seem right given his body size.
His body fits in Marron's food dish (the biggest of all of the food dishes) and he has memorized a technique for snatching his food.
Pino, however, fits in my hand~.
Every day, they just walk wherever, having great adventures here in the house.
Of course these two aren't twin sisters, they're twin brothers. <3
Well, I'm working on a new song soon.... actually I should say that I better get started on it very very quickly!!!!!!!
Why do I always put things off till the last minute, I wonder...? lol
Today,
7 October 2009 1:20 AM
...Actually, I've been working on the song to the point where today has now become yesterday, maybe, but honestly, I don't really know.
Well, it hasn't exactly been smooth sailing, but the overall image is very concrete now, and usually, I work in a straight shot until everything's all finished. I can't do anything else during that time though.
Today, I took a rest every now and then, but I still made progress.
First, I looked at all the audience POV videos of Fukuoka. Once that was done, I watched the producer POV, looking at fine details for things that can be improved for the shows in Yoyogi. All finished!♪All good!♪
So, after that, I took the time to check out all the presents and letters and messages and everything that sooooo many people gave me over the course of my birthday week.
Afterwards, I got this from KAZ.
All the messages from everyone in TA <3
The back looks like this <3
It's enough to make you cry, huh?
So this & that got done, and here yesterday I said that I had stuff I could write about but I was thinking I wanted to keep the words to myself, but I'm thinking "that's wrong~."
Words can't be laid into a picture frame, right? I thought.
But still, if I can say it, we're coming up to the last city of the tour, and ever since I started planning for this tour, I couldn't have imagined how much these shows would evolve into something so wonderful, and we're bringing the tour to a close with the shows in such perfect form.
So now we turn straight towards the goal of Yoyogi, not lost at all.
I truly thank you.
Once I got home, Papico turned into the most codependent person ever.
At least I thought so, but my kiss was denied! What the hey?
With a side glance from far away, Pino sees this, but he's doing his own thing.
He decided to lie down. Not interesting enough for you, eh?
He looks like that, and I just become so impossibly happy.
As usual, I can't reach something if it's out of my reach, but
This 31 year old is making a crazy good song.☆
Questions
7 October 2009 10:27 PM
I got alot of them, so I came by for a sec~.
I wore this when returning home from Fukuoka Airport. It's a hat with gray stars on it that you can get from Toco Pacific*.☆
It comes in different colors, I have a red one too.☆
The T-shirt is a Lafine & Tocopaci collaboration tee.☆
I digress, but most recently I got this really hot strap through my connection to Tocopaci.
I think you can order it from Tocopaci.
Chonsan's appearance has been way too much about cuteness lately, but I just gotta use Pinky here.
That right there, when I couldn't find it when I was looking for it, it was like I beaten down by rain all day. (I'm serious! lol)
Saying,
I STILL can't find it!!
Anyway, I have to get back to work. Booooo.
When I have time, I'll upload lots more photos & fashion checks for you though~!!!!!!!!
*She abbreviates this as "TOKOPASHI" the whole entry, so I put Tocopaci there for the rest of the entry. :)
Creds: tasking & Deli@AHS
ayu's DIARY: 1/10/2009
Här får vi följa Ayu och hennes dansare och band när de tränar inför de sista fyra kommande showerna. Ni får även se två nya tillskotten i Ayus familj i hennes andra inlägg. ^__^
Alrighty-!!!
1 October 2009 5:03 PM
I say it with feeling, cuz as I wrote yesterday, the band & dancers & staff all had rehearsal together, so I'm uploading a bunch of the photos real fast!
First, sensitive concentration. Ward off all the wicked thoughts.
Then, the whole crew gathers in the studio!!!
I love how the air feels just before we begin.
It's called a rehearsal, but we keep flying with the same motivation as if it were a real performance.
Look how serious Shuu-cha is!!
Su-san puts some heat on it too!!
Aki-ane in front of the boys, all flowing together!!
Chi-chan, always that same tiny face!!
Enrique, your legs are too long!! (I'm reminded of Mahone*)
The combo of Yo-chan & Peco-san in full effect!!
And I'm all sweaty!!
I caught a Su-san!!
Zin-san looks all Ganguro!!
Maro-nii with the spirit of a diva!!
I can't lose!
And here is the original diva spirit!!
I can't lose!!
The girls-tachi can't lose either!!
Rocky-san jumps with his ultra-small face!!
And Kazumax, having reached age 26, floats in the air!!
Akirax is doin' his thing!!
Nii-yan's face in profile just kinda looks wrong!!
Mother Go-mi, whose energy level is just as high as always!!
We can't lose!!
Way too sweaty and I need to change clothes!!
Kayanocchi as seen by the camera!!
I thought it was an angel, but it was Midoring!!
But, still, must be serious!!
This is the same person who was having a "One at a Time Meeting" in an alleyway, being all genki!!
This is the same person whose 31st birthday is right under her nose, and I decided something!!
Which is...
As of today, my family has increased by two 2-month-old members!
Their names are Pino and Papico.
Four more shows left, we are one group, again, again
I swear to report to the stage, leveled up and confident!!
Please look forward to it as much as you can!!!
*Alexander Mahone (played by William Fichtner) from Prison Break, which Ayu is a huge fan of, as many of you will remember.
Lying down.
1 October 2009 7:35 PM
They're both two months old, but look how different their face sizes are! <3
Papico is on the right, Pino on the left. <3 They were born in the summer so I named them after ice cream. <3
These guys lie down in symmetry to each other. <3
Creds: tasking & Deli@AHS
Alrighty-!!!
1 October 2009 5:03 PM
I say it with feeling, cuz as I wrote yesterday, the band & dancers & staff all had rehearsal together, so I'm uploading a bunch of the photos real fast!
First, sensitive concentration. Ward off all the wicked thoughts.
Then, the whole crew gathers in the studio!!!
I love how the air feels just before we begin.
It's called a rehearsal, but we keep flying with the same motivation as if it were a real performance.
Look how serious Shuu-cha is!!
Su-san puts some heat on it too!!
Aki-ane in front of the boys, all flowing together!!
Chi-chan, always that same tiny face!!
Enrique, your legs are too long!! (I'm reminded of Mahone*)
The combo of Yo-chan & Peco-san in full effect!!
And I'm all sweaty!!
I caught a Su-san!!
Zin-san looks all Ganguro!!
Maro-nii with the spirit of a diva!!
I can't lose!
And here is the original diva spirit!!
I can't lose!!
The girls-tachi can't lose either!!
Rocky-san jumps with his ultra-small face!!
And Kazumax, having reached age 26, floats in the air!!
Akirax is doin' his thing!!
Nii-yan's face in profile just kinda looks wrong!!
Mother Go-mi, whose energy level is just as high as always!!
We can't lose!!
Way too sweaty and I need to change clothes!!
Kayanocchi as seen by the camera!!
I thought it was an angel, but it was Midoring!!
But, still, must be serious!!
This is the same person who was having a "One at a Time Meeting" in an alleyway, being all genki!!
This is the same person whose 31st birthday is right under her nose, and I decided something!!
Which is...
As of today, my family has increased by two 2-month-old members!
Their names are Pino and Papico.
Four more shows left, we are one group, again, again
I swear to report to the stage, leveled up and confident!!
Please look forward to it as much as you can!!!
*Alexander Mahone (played by William Fichtner) from Prison Break, which Ayu is a huge fan of, as many of you will remember.
Lying down.
1 October 2009 7:35 PM
They're both two months old, but look how different their face sizes are! <3
Papico is on the right, Pino on the left. <3 They were born in the summer so I named them after ice cream. <3
These guys lie down in symmetry to each other. <3
Creds: tasking & Deli@AHS
ayu's DIARY: 30/09/2009
Today ...
30-09-2009 12:36
... is the anniversary of Kazumax, one of ayu-dancers ☆
Say, if you have time, send a message of congratulations, oki? ♪
I think he will be super happy ... ♪ ♪ ♪
The blog of dancer KAZUMA
Uh .. about, this is not an attack blog eh? ! lol
These days, Chon san uses "Subalog" as book learning to life.
I swear, you should all read it! ! !
If there are those who have not yet read.
The "Subalog"
The diary of daily life and thoughts of the dancer SUBARU
Well, I come back later to post pictures ok? ♡
Love is not an illusion
Dreams come true surely
Keeping the light of hope
If we believe ...
The sky is a little far
but will find the end of the rainbow.
More.
30-09-2009 18h01
I told you yesterday that I'll post pictures, so here's all the ones I left in plan!
To begin, as I've said, here are the members of this nightlife ☟
You can zap through the installation of unspeakable Minazô lol. Where we are is a restaurant supeeeer sale (with all my love ♡), on many levels it's supeeeer anything (with all my love ♡), but supeeeeer good! ♪
And the servers are all Thai, they are all supeeer nice. I adore them ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪
Anyway, Chon san, it is rather negative, that the head can not draw it on the photo ☟
Really dark! lol
At my side, big sister Riko-Dalmatian brings us the atmosphere!
After dinner, we went to a bar owned by a friend.
The point of this picture is that Chon sees san walking in the street quite normal! ! But actually not. The real important point is that we see big sister Riko-Dalmatian who never stops talking as a machine gun and balance without even noticing its business on Minazô! lol It flies really high .... ! lol
And after the photo I posted yesterday and the game of paparazzi did with him, we played a game that all girls know, the play "Sex and the City" ☟
Again, with the garbage bins on the left, it flies high!
And Kanako Miura Bancho aka san exclaimed: "I'm Samantha!" lol
ain, the girls, you see how this remark flies high? lol
In general, the level rises instantly, but soon after falls very low, but this evening there, it remained very high ...! ♡ Thanks! ♡
Although there also is garbage on the right lol
Good! Yesterday, during the repeat, I could take lots of pictures, I'll post them soon ♪
In the meantime, I'll post one of them to you which steals very high lol ☆
They are Yocchan & Peco san! mimiiii too! ♪ ♪ ♪
Creds: identity@AHS & Ayuangel.com
30-09-2009 12:36
... is the anniversary of Kazumax, one of ayu-dancers ☆
Say, if you have time, send a message of congratulations, oki? ♪
I think he will be super happy ... ♪ ♪ ♪
The blog of dancer KAZUMA
Uh .. about, this is not an attack blog eh? ! lol
These days, Chon san uses "Subalog" as book learning to life.
I swear, you should all read it! ! !
If there are those who have not yet read.
The "Subalog"
The diary of daily life and thoughts of the dancer SUBARU
Well, I come back later to post pictures ok? ♡
Love is not an illusion
Dreams come true surely
Keeping the light of hope
If we believe ...
The sky is a little far
but will find the end of the rainbow.
More.
30-09-2009 18h01
I told you yesterday that I'll post pictures, so here's all the ones I left in plan!
To begin, as I've said, here are the members of this nightlife ☟
You can zap through the installation of unspeakable Minazô lol. Where we are is a restaurant supeeeer sale (with all my love ♡), on many levels it's supeeeer anything (with all my love ♡), but supeeeeer good! ♪
And the servers are all Thai, they are all supeeer nice. I adore them ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪
Anyway, Chon san, it is rather negative, that the head can not draw it on the photo ☟
Really dark! lol
At my side, big sister Riko-Dalmatian brings us the atmosphere!
After dinner, we went to a bar owned by a friend.
The point of this picture is that Chon sees san walking in the street quite normal! ! But actually not. The real important point is that we see big sister Riko-Dalmatian who never stops talking as a machine gun and balance without even noticing its business on Minazô! lol It flies really high .... ! lol
And after the photo I posted yesterday and the game of paparazzi did with him, we played a game that all girls know, the play "Sex and the City" ☟
Again, with the garbage bins on the left, it flies high!
And Kanako Miura Bancho aka san exclaimed: "I'm Samantha!" lol
ain, the girls, you see how this remark flies high? lol
In general, the level rises instantly, but soon after falls very low, but this evening there, it remained very high ...! ♡ Thanks! ♡
Although there also is garbage on the right lol
Good! Yesterday, during the repeat, I could take lots of pictures, I'll post them soon ♪
In the meantime, I'll post one of them to you which steals very high lol ☆
They are Yocchan & Peco san! mimiiii too! ♪ ♪ ♪
Creds: identity@AHS & Ayuangel.com
ayu's DIARY: 26/09/2009 - 29/09/2009
Sen 26'e skriver Ayu om hur de jobbar hårt inför helgens konserter och Ayu berättar lite om den kommande a-nation'09-DVDn. Den 27e vaknade hon jättetidigt och agerade lite husmor. Hon isar även de första exemplaren av de nya svindyra nyckelringarna. Den 29e berättar hon om hur hennes energi förämdras.
In such a short amount of time,
26 September 2009 9:50 PM
my hard drive has been working awfully hard and it's hurting my lap now, but today, I got to return home ahead of schedule.
I'm home so early, I don't know what to do with the extra time! (be patient?
In all seriousness I'm gonna try to rest and let myself recharge. Don't worry~☆
Well, I got alot of messages from everyone, "Upload photos of the girls too~ <3" So as far as that goes, um, Chon-san is not so bold as to mess around with her big sisters' photos (lol) so I found a cute shot of the full set of 4 cute people, I'm uploading it here♪
Yup, ta-da!!
I think you know them already, but just in case, top right in the photo is Aki-ane, and then on the left is Kayanocchi.
On the bottom row, to the right is (my) Midoring.
To the left side, Chi-chan.☆
Well, my head is slowly getting sorted back out~...
But right now I think there's a demon in there.
"The edit of a-nation for the DVD, please!!!"
...
Oh, really? Is that how it's gonna be?? lol
I'm workin' on it-------!!!!!!
Alright, I gotta get back to work now. lol
P.S.
26 September 2009 10:53 PM
As far as the a-nation editing, I can tell you that there'll be off-shot!!
There are tons of extremely rare backstage & behind the scenes shots. I'm worried how much of this it's okay to show you all (lol).
Butbut, it's not a mistake that the DVD will be full of this valuable footage, so look forward to it~☆
Yesterday, Chon-san kinda fell behind a bit cuz she had to buy Kazumasa Oda's best-of.
This early
27 September 2009 9:57 AM
I didn't plan to wake up so early, I woke up at about 6 AM today.
What the heck, getting up such a short time after laying down. lol
I felt like I was having a really scary dream for some reason, and I felt paralyzed and I couldn't even breathe.
Maybe it's not like this for everyone, but for me, when I realize that "Aah! This is a dream!!" I know the technique to forcibly slip out of it, and force myself awake.
So of course this morning, I was really scared, so I went "UNGH!" and forced myself out of the dream so I could wake up.
So I did that, but I wasn't in a dream in the first place.
Paralysis ☞ big fat Marron got on top of my body & fell asleep.
(He could not be moved.)
Labored breathing ☞ Cocoa was sleeping on top of my face.
(Crafty li'l guy.)
So as it turns out, my two little babies were the cause.
So thanks to them I'm completely awake, but I did not enjoy the Tokyo sunrise, so I covered up the window completely and, that done, I started cleaning up the room. 6 AM? Really? lol
I even did the laundry. I apologize, that's not becoming of me. lol
I don't usually do that. (Talking about it, I mean.)
So now that the whole family's got this & that sparkling clean, it's already this time of morning~!!!!!!!!!
Proof that I suck at this. lol
But with cleaning, laundry, cooking, small simple work... I'm usually awesome.
Whether I like it or not. That's the point. lol
And I don't need it, but in my spare time I figured I'd see if I can make spinach.
But officially...
My li'l arfies, they fell right to sleep.
What the hey??? lol
<P.S.>
Finally received them~, the first ones!!!!!! ta-da!!!
The accumulation of love and effort and tears and sweat from Satsuki-chan's whole group is here in spades.
Lovely, huh?☆
By the way, everyone in Team Kobe (that's Satsuki-chan and everyone) are immediately starting work on the next TA-exclusive neck strap.
My goodness, all that effort and fortitude, and the ability to concentrate is probably a necessity.
That way they can make a number of them...
After all, they're not just slapping them on, but they're precisely placing the stones all together on there one by one...
I can't help but hang my head.
I can't be defeated either, I have to live through today with all my strength☆
Go for it----------!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Satsuki-chan!! You stick those things on, everyone!!!!!
The Bubble (continued)
27-09-2009 11:49
As I had more time until I left the job, and it was while I pass it to do something, after cleaning and laundry, I decided to make my breakfast. In general I'm not all that.
It prepares me (which, ..?)
Today is exceptional lol
And despite this long intro, I actually cooked anything extraordinary, notice is also what makes my charm lol. Voila! !
Spinach with black sesame sauce and a boiled egg. I did as I could lol.
As a guide, the word "spinach" (in Japanese hôrensô) that I used in my previous message is my habit of language, because it means "make a report (Hokoku in ***.) - Contact (Renraku in *** .) - interview (sodan in ***).. lol
Well, here, nothing to do lol.
The photo, what are the spinach we eat lol (see?)
The dish is a curry tote.
In the curry, I put what I have to this point in my fridge lol.
That's why I can never repeat twice the same lol.
For rice, I do not like white, I put brown rice. And as such bulk rice and curry over in bulk, something that offends my sense of aesthetics, I begin by putting the amount of rice I can eat in a bowl, I tapped with a spoon for example (at this moment it does not crush the grains) and I throw the bowl on a plate. And this brown rice and curry, it reminds me of the colors of Team (lol)
And as color level is a bit sad, I raise the level by a fallen leaf parsley, for example, while it becomes pretty ☆
And as you know, I am a resident of the Star Basilica, I also put the basilica carved ☆
Uh ...
this reminds me ...
This is the blog that already? ?
Finally, as I write this blog, right? lol
Well, I'd better stop here lol
Okay, not deserve all these details is what makes quej'ai my alarm clock.
Come on, over for today's meeting glandouille! ! !
You know ...
29-09-2009 12:36
You all know that I can not lie, eh? lol
I admit without shame, but these days, I have my energy level plummeted. I even have the strength to update my blog.
And seeing me spineless:
"We will not let you rot on the spot!"
Kanako Miura Bancho aka san and Minazô strongly shaken me, and they took me out on the town at night. And "miss Tsuriko" has even joined us, and that is equipped for a battery recharge!
My energy level has risen to the point of taking this kind of photo!
Well, okay, it reached highs not immediately. It will still take some time before reaching the summit, but good as I am only human and it is proof that I am alive, even in this state, I'll do whatever it takes for a good day's work! !
Well, we took lots of pictures, try to bring you more tonight! ! ! ! ! ! !
Creds: identity@AHS, AyuAngel.com & [email protected]
In such a short amount of time,
26 September 2009 9:50 PM
my hard drive has been working awfully hard and it's hurting my lap now, but today, I got to return home ahead of schedule.
I'm home so early, I don't know what to do with the extra time! (be patient?
In all seriousness I'm gonna try to rest and let myself recharge. Don't worry~☆
Well, I got alot of messages from everyone, "Upload photos of the girls too~ <3" So as far as that goes, um, Chon-san is not so bold as to mess around with her big sisters' photos (lol) so I found a cute shot of the full set of 4 cute people, I'm uploading it here♪
Yup, ta-da!!
I think you know them already, but just in case, top right in the photo is Aki-ane, and then on the left is Kayanocchi.
On the bottom row, to the right is (my) Midoring.
To the left side, Chi-chan.☆
Well, my head is slowly getting sorted back out~...
But right now I think there's a demon in there.
"The edit of a-nation for the DVD, please!!!"
...
Oh, really? Is that how it's gonna be?? lol
I'm workin' on it-------!!!!!!
Alright, I gotta get back to work now. lol
P.S.
26 September 2009 10:53 PM
As far as the a-nation editing, I can tell you that there'll be off-shot!!
There are tons of extremely rare backstage & behind the scenes shots. I'm worried how much of this it's okay to show you all (lol).
Butbut, it's not a mistake that the DVD will be full of this valuable footage, so look forward to it~☆
Yesterday, Chon-san kinda fell behind a bit cuz she had to buy Kazumasa Oda's best-of.
This early
27 September 2009 9:57 AM
I didn't plan to wake up so early, I woke up at about 6 AM today.
What the heck, getting up such a short time after laying down. lol
I felt like I was having a really scary dream for some reason, and I felt paralyzed and I couldn't even breathe.
Maybe it's not like this for everyone, but for me, when I realize that "Aah! This is a dream!!" I know the technique to forcibly slip out of it, and force myself awake.
So of course this morning, I was really scared, so I went "UNGH!" and forced myself out of the dream so I could wake up.
So I did that, but I wasn't in a dream in the first place.
Paralysis ☞ big fat Marron got on top of my body & fell asleep.
(He could not be moved.)
Labored breathing ☞ Cocoa was sleeping on top of my face.
(Crafty li'l guy.)
So as it turns out, my two little babies were the cause.
So thanks to them I'm completely awake, but I did not enjoy the Tokyo sunrise, so I covered up the window completely and, that done, I started cleaning up the room. 6 AM? Really? lol
I even did the laundry. I apologize, that's not becoming of me. lol
I don't usually do that. (Talking about it, I mean.)
So now that the whole family's got this & that sparkling clean, it's already this time of morning~!!!!!!!!!
Proof that I suck at this. lol
But with cleaning, laundry, cooking, small simple work... I'm usually awesome.
Whether I like it or not. That's the point. lol
And I don't need it, but in my spare time I figured I'd see if I can make spinach.
But officially...
My li'l arfies, they fell right to sleep.
What the hey??? lol
<P.S.>
Finally received them~, the first ones!!!!!! ta-da!!!
The accumulation of love and effort and tears and sweat from Satsuki-chan's whole group is here in spades.
Lovely, huh?☆
By the way, everyone in Team Kobe (that's Satsuki-chan and everyone) are immediately starting work on the next TA-exclusive neck strap.
My goodness, all that effort and fortitude, and the ability to concentrate is probably a necessity.
That way they can make a number of them...
After all, they're not just slapping them on, but they're precisely placing the stones all together on there one by one...
I can't help but hang my head.
I can't be defeated either, I have to live through today with all my strength☆
Go for it----------!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Satsuki-chan!! You stick those things on, everyone!!!!!
The Bubble (continued)
27-09-2009 11:49
As I had more time until I left the job, and it was while I pass it to do something, after cleaning and laundry, I decided to make my breakfast. In general I'm not all that.
It prepares me (which, ..?)
Today is exceptional lol
And despite this long intro, I actually cooked anything extraordinary, notice is also what makes my charm lol. Voila! !
Spinach with black sesame sauce and a boiled egg. I did as I could lol.
As a guide, the word "spinach" (in Japanese hôrensô) that I used in my previous message is my habit of language, because it means "make a report (Hokoku in ***.) - Contact (Renraku in *** .) - interview (sodan in ***).. lol
Well, here, nothing to do lol.
The photo, what are the spinach we eat lol (see?)
The dish is a curry tote.
In the curry, I put what I have to this point in my fridge lol.
That's why I can never repeat twice the same lol.
For rice, I do not like white, I put brown rice. And as such bulk rice and curry over in bulk, something that offends my sense of aesthetics, I begin by putting the amount of rice I can eat in a bowl, I tapped with a spoon for example (at this moment it does not crush the grains) and I throw the bowl on a plate. And this brown rice and curry, it reminds me of the colors of Team (lol)
And as color level is a bit sad, I raise the level by a fallen leaf parsley, for example, while it becomes pretty ☆
And as you know, I am a resident of the Star Basilica, I also put the basilica carved ☆
Uh ...
this reminds me ...
This is the blog that already? ?
Finally, as I write this blog, right? lol
Well, I'd better stop here lol
Okay, not deserve all these details is what makes quej'ai my alarm clock.
Come on, over for today's meeting glandouille! ! !
You know ...
29-09-2009 12:36
You all know that I can not lie, eh? lol
I admit without shame, but these days, I have my energy level plummeted. I even have the strength to update my blog.
And seeing me spineless:
"We will not let you rot on the spot!"
Kanako Miura Bancho aka san and Minazô strongly shaken me, and they took me out on the town at night. And "miss Tsuriko" has even joined us, and that is equipped for a battery recharge!
My energy level has risen to the point of taking this kind of photo!
Well, okay, it reached highs not immediately. It will still take some time before reaching the summit, but good as I am only human and it is proof that I am alive, even in this state, I'll do whatever it takes for a good day's work! !
Well, we took lots of pictures, try to bring you more tonight! ! ! ! ! ! !
Creds: identity@AHS, AyuAngel.com & [email protected]
ayu's DIARY: 25/09/2009
Förutom att fortfarande sova dåligt så tränas det hårt inför sista konserterna av touren vilket Ayu skriver om här. Nu är översättningen gjord med google translations från franska-engelska så det kan vara lite svårtförstått ibland.
There are lots ...
25-09-2009 01h42
Recipe for sleep that you have given me, "that will help me a lot! ☆
I have found many that look good ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ thank you very much
I will try them right away
Or so I thought, but I am not yet entered the action phase. It is me, this (not the best of my side!).
Because ... I have just completed the installation of a 09-nation to be released in two days in WOWOW! ! !
pffffffffffffff!
ooooooooooouf
it was just lol
But the result is great. It is a full seamless ☆
I hope you'll enjoy! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
Well, I'll disclose, with photos, a little of what happened yesterday at the rehearsal in Makuhari.
So first we check the driver of the duplication between the sheave, Koichi, Ryu and myself.
We are very concentrated!
Here I am trying to sort out in my head!
It will soon start! ! !
I can not reveal what's around, then maybe not great photos, but I will watch anyway, hiding the rest lol
Akirax is still in a place where I can see it, so when my eyes are starting to swim (lol), he informs me forever! ! !
Thank you thank you! ☆
Well I wanted to stay serious, but I just found photos too funny!
First, it is not funny it is, rather, it is super nice (who guessed that this picture is the following?) What is funny is that I managed to capture this moment.
Un ... two .... three!
Yes! Maroniiiii! !
Then, a person rarely seen.
Voila! !
So ....?
Pause sexy eh?
Yes, it Gomi sensei! ♪
Come on, go on!
At first I wondered what could be eating, I think it is rather the moment when he sneezes!
Voila! !
So ....
----- Mimi too! ♡
But what was he really?
Go to next picture! !
I'm hiding ...
I'm here! lol
Go Next!
"It smells a little bad ..."
"it stinks really ...!"
Kazuma Sorry, but you danced seriously lol!
Anyway, it is too nostrils, unless it can be the armpit that are too tight lol
The right thing, rather it was that? ? ?
Go ahead, m'sieurs ladies, you can let go! !
You know it does not look like that, but in truth they're all super concentrated! lol
Even Chon san tending his microphone ... to empty seats lol.
I look happy, eh?
Well, at the foot of the stage, someone even more joyful!
But you doing, what, SOU? lol
Even Megumi gets going! lol
It is unclear, but on the middle leaf is written "Zin" large hand. It's very high lol
Finally repeat Akirax took place Chon san, which started in the face to see what it gave!
And all the Staff and Chon san encourage dancers even put out and gutted, have not really skimp or saved their strength ...
.. and then hatching the eye ...
Thus ran smoothly again this ... not this day again! ♪
It has transpired so that was changed 3 times!
We still have to repeat it in Studio, then, that the musicians, dancers and all the staff can go to the end with smiles and good humor, I thought again it was I begin by showing myself a good example ☆
Creds: AyuAngel & identity@AHS
There are lots ...
25-09-2009 01h42
Recipe for sleep that you have given me, "that will help me a lot! ☆
I have found many that look good ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ thank you very much
I will try them right away
Or so I thought, but I am not yet entered the action phase. It is me, this (not the best of my side!).
Because ... I have just completed the installation of a 09-nation to be released in two days in WOWOW! ! !
pffffffffffffff!
ooooooooooouf
it was just lol
But the result is great. It is a full seamless ☆
I hope you'll enjoy! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
Well, I'll disclose, with photos, a little of what happened yesterday at the rehearsal in Makuhari.
So first we check the driver of the duplication between the sheave, Koichi, Ryu and myself.
We are very concentrated!
Here I am trying to sort out in my head!
It will soon start! ! !
I can not reveal what's around, then maybe not great photos, but I will watch anyway, hiding the rest lol
Akirax is still in a place where I can see it, so when my eyes are starting to swim (lol), he informs me forever! ! !
Thank you thank you! ☆
Well I wanted to stay serious, but I just found photos too funny!
First, it is not funny it is, rather, it is super nice (who guessed that this picture is the following?) What is funny is that I managed to capture this moment.
Un ... two .... three!
Yes! Maroniiiii! !
Then, a person rarely seen.
Voila! !
So ....?
Pause sexy eh?
Yes, it Gomi sensei! ♪
Come on, go on!
At first I wondered what could be eating, I think it is rather the moment when he sneezes!
Voila! !
So ....
----- Mimi too! ♡
But what was he really?
Go to next picture! !
I'm hiding ...
I'm here! lol
Go Next!
"It smells a little bad ..."
"it stinks really ...!"
Kazuma Sorry, but you danced seriously lol!
Anyway, it is too nostrils, unless it can be the armpit that are too tight lol
The right thing, rather it was that? ? ?
Go ahead, m'sieurs ladies, you can let go! !
You know it does not look like that, but in truth they're all super concentrated! lol
Even Chon san tending his microphone ... to empty seats lol.
I look happy, eh?
Well, at the foot of the stage, someone even more joyful!
But you doing, what, SOU? lol
Even Megumi gets going! lol
It is unclear, but on the middle leaf is written "Zin" large hand. It's very high lol
Finally repeat Akirax took place Chon san, which started in the face to see what it gave!
And all the Staff and Chon san encourage dancers even put out and gutted, have not really skimp or saved their strength ...
.. and then hatching the eye ...
Thus ran smoothly again this ... not this day again! ♪
It has transpired so that was changed 3 times!
We still have to repeat it in Studio, then, that the musicians, dancers and all the staff can go to the end with smiles and good humor, I thought again it was I begin by showing myself a good example ☆
Creds: AyuAngel & identity@AHS
ayu's DIARY: 22/09/2009 (tredje inlägget)
Detta inlägg kom lite senare i översatt form än det som kom 23/09. Därav lite skutt i ordningen men det är inget farligt. ^^ Här berfinner Ayu sig på hisnande höjder!
True ...
22-09-2009 21h50
... what is more sad fact is abandoned, it is I who said that.
Thank you, it's you who tell me or make me aware of many things.
I still receive a considerable number of messages.
And what moves me most is that all those messages telling me the same thing.
I think it's really huge.
Tens of thousands of people who feel the same way and sending me messages.
I think I'm a huge circle of friends.
I must pull myself together! ! !
Chuis really lucky to ETR 'SURROUNDED BY BOTH CHAAALEUR
I am who takes my southern accent ...!
The impression that perhaps it is more like me ...!
Good! Following your "it looks! ☆" received many, here is the result of my "diary Vegas" ♪
For those who have forgotten the end of the previous episode, please read it before discovering more ☆
It is therefore wandering nonchalantly, and that's where we got ... tataaan! !
The top floor of the Stratosphere Tower
Not only do we not understand what makes it so high, but the more it moves, it moves ...
And suddenly, that the infernal machine in which it was found TATAAAN!
We understand even less what makes it!
It's not a photo montage, eh, it's reality.
Here's another photo where we can better understand tataaan! !
It's not a photo montage, eh, it's reality.
It is completely out of the Tour.
Finally ... I am not rise lol
You know what? Even so, there is one still seeking a "beautiful" pose ..
You can imagine that, huh?
Yes ... Maroni! tataaan! !
But why bother asking in such a situation? lol
Su san and trying without seeming to make the sign of "peace", it is mimi
It should make a book of Subablog and publish ...
Uh, I digress (but I seriously think ...)
Well I'll continue! ! !
The next attraction is that Tataaan! !
When I tell you I know what makes this .. lol
There are even some who are so they are not posing as de ouf Minazô or Gori which is completely frozen lol ↓
Of course, even here, there was always a sham Mr lol
So, he is really too lol
Maroni! ↓
It's huge, eh? How does he manage to locate where the device ui the photograph? lol
You know what? this attraction, Chon san also has tried ...
But the fear was such, and it was so visible on my face that .. Photo censored lol
To tell you how much I was scared, well I am at exit ↓
My legs cotton lol
I walk, half laughing, half crying ↓
The thing to do, is also behind me, the joy of Kanako who applauded with both hands lol
And here I am on all fours ... ↓
The thing to do, is also behind me, the joy of Zin san applauded with both hands lol
I come over to my feet, I can only laugh ... ↓
Those who still wanted more thrills have gone to the next attraction, for me I preferred to play the guards.
Behind Stan chan screaming "Nooooo!!" Is a person with no life ... lol
But then I found a drink that had the shape of the Sttatosphere Tower, and I suddenly found all my energy! ! ! ! ! ! !
What Can I just be me lol
The real trick for tourists! ! We are not all day like that eh? That's why I was happy, but happy! lol
At this point there ↓
I look gay huh? But I was really too lol
Then we left the Tour Infernale, asistir to go to next show.
For all of us time to change clothes ♪
Finished to change! What she is beautiful, Kayanocchi ♡
Hum? There's one that's weird, huh? It zaps? lol
Mr showing off, while complaining that night he did not see much, it does not prevent him from keeping his sunglasses lol
The show ended, we returned to the same restaurant as usual, at our regular table, the fountains are always so great! ☆
But ... between these water games and me, there are those two constantly ↓
Result, I always Gori in my field of vision when I look at the fountains.
Or SOU.
Or both.
Anyway, in a gentle world, an image of ... Gross? lol
What did we laugh!
Good going, I stop by the Part 4.
At this time, many people from my staff are working hard to prepare for the Tour again tomorrow.
Because as of tomorrow, no more repeats in the studio but on the real scene.
That's why they work hard.
I'm lucky ... And do not risk wasting this opportunity or the feeling of gratitude I feel for them, I promise you we will give everything in this preparation for Fukuoka! ! !
Credit: cy @ AyuAngel C+R+E+AYUMI@AHS + Ayu's Story
True ...
22-09-2009 21h50
... what is more sad fact is abandoned, it is I who said that.
Thank you, it's you who tell me or make me aware of many things.
I still receive a considerable number of messages.
And what moves me most is that all those messages telling me the same thing.
I think it's really huge.
Tens of thousands of people who feel the same way and sending me messages.
I think I'm a huge circle of friends.
I must pull myself together! ! !
Chuis really lucky to ETR 'SURROUNDED BY BOTH CHAAALEUR
I am who takes my southern accent ...!
The impression that perhaps it is more like me ...!
Good! Following your "it looks! ☆" received many, here is the result of my "diary Vegas" ♪
For those who have forgotten the end of the previous episode, please read it before discovering more ☆
It is therefore wandering nonchalantly, and that's where we got ... tataaan! !
The top floor of the Stratosphere Tower
Not only do we not understand what makes it so high, but the more it moves, it moves ...
And suddenly, that the infernal machine in which it was found TATAAAN!
We understand even less what makes it!
It's not a photo montage, eh, it's reality.
Here's another photo where we can better understand tataaan! !
It's not a photo montage, eh, it's reality.
It is completely out of the Tour.
Finally ... I am not rise lol
You know what? Even so, there is one still seeking a "beautiful" pose ..
You can imagine that, huh?
Yes ... Maroni! tataaan! !
But why bother asking in such a situation? lol
Su san and trying without seeming to make the sign of "peace", it is mimi
It should make a book of Subablog and publish ...
Uh, I digress (but I seriously think ...)
Well I'll continue! ! !
The next attraction is that Tataaan! !
When I tell you I know what makes this .. lol
There are even some who are so they are not posing as de ouf Minazô or Gori which is completely frozen lol ↓
Of course, even here, there was always a sham Mr lol
So, he is really too lol
Maroni! ↓
It's huge, eh? How does he manage to locate where the device ui the photograph? lol
You know what? this attraction, Chon san also has tried ...
But the fear was such, and it was so visible on my face that .. Photo censored lol
To tell you how much I was scared, well I am at exit ↓
My legs cotton lol
I walk, half laughing, half crying ↓
The thing to do, is also behind me, the joy of Kanako who applauded with both hands lol
And here I am on all fours ... ↓
The thing to do, is also behind me, the joy of Zin san applauded with both hands lol
I come over to my feet, I can only laugh ... ↓
Those who still wanted more thrills have gone to the next attraction, for me I preferred to play the guards.
Behind Stan chan screaming "Nooooo!!" Is a person with no life ... lol
But then I found a drink that had the shape of the Sttatosphere Tower, and I suddenly found all my energy! ! ! ! ! ! !
What Can I just be me lol
The real trick for tourists! ! We are not all day like that eh? That's why I was happy, but happy! lol
At this point there ↓
I look gay huh? But I was really too lol
Then we left the Tour Infernale, asistir to go to next show.
For all of us time to change clothes ♪
Finished to change! What she is beautiful, Kayanocchi ♡
Hum? There's one that's weird, huh? It zaps? lol
Mr showing off, while complaining that night he did not see much, it does not prevent him from keeping his sunglasses lol
The show ended, we returned to the same restaurant as usual, at our regular table, the fountains are always so great! ☆
But ... between these water games and me, there are those two constantly ↓
Result, I always Gori in my field of vision when I look at the fountains.
Or SOU.
Or both.
Anyway, in a gentle world, an image of ... Gross? lol
What did we laugh!
Good going, I stop by the Part 4.
At this time, many people from my staff are working hard to prepare for the Tour again tomorrow.
Because as of tomorrow, no more repeats in the studio but on the real scene.
That's why they work hard.
I'm lucky ... And do not risk wasting this opportunity or the feeling of gratitude I feel for them, I promise you we will give everything in this preparation for Fukuoka! ! !
Credit: cy @ AyuAngel C+R+E+AYUMI@AHS + Ayu's Story
ayu's DIARY: 23/09/2009
Ayu lider av lite sömnbrist i vanlig ordning...
At this moment...
23-09-2009 8.53 AM
..I weak up very early...!
Even the time I go to bed never change, I'm often tired on the end of the afternoon.
If I continue not to sleep, it's going to be not cool at all, if someone know what must I do to sleep more, I really want advices...!
Just for know, I asked Gori.
"If you totally breathe 3 times, at the second you must be sleeping" he answered. But I think just him can do this.
What do you think? lol
Creds: Ayu_Ready@AHS
At this moment...
23-09-2009 8.53 AM
..I weak up very early...!
Even the time I go to bed never change, I'm often tired on the end of the afternoon.
If I continue not to sleep, it's going to be not cool at all, if someone know what must I do to sleep more, I really want advices...!
Just for know, I asked Gori.
"If you totally breathe 3 times, at the second you must be sleeping" he answered. But I think just him can do this.
What do you think? lol
Creds: Ayu_Ready@AHS
ayu's DIARY: 22/09/2009
Snabbt meddelande: Jag håller på att göra om bloggen lite och detta medför lite störningar i systemet tydligen. 3 stycken blogginlägg som skrevs för över ett halvår sen har hamnat längst upp på sidan av någon anledning. Men men hoppas det inte stör alltför mycket. :)
Ayu har en överaskning på G!I det andra inlägget lägger hon av en mer deppig ton men avslutar med hopp i orden! ^^
By super-express mail ...
22-09-2009 01h47
Here is what I come! ! ! ! ! ! !
Yes, from Satsuki chan ♡
Here is the side facing ♡
She changed the face of my phone, which had been release in autumn-winter version ♡
I was a little upset these days with something very private, Satsuki chan, in perfect timing, sent me this hope that shines with all its lights!
And little zoom on the message that accompanied ...
"Go go until Fukuoka!"
Yes.
By the end of the Silver Week (succession of holidays in Japan in September), something that was kept secret will be officially announced, so I can not say too much until then ...
Sarsuki chan, you and all of its staff, which you have worked for me without even count your work hours and taking on your sleep ... ♡
You can be you too hopeful! ! ! ! ! !
Say, you can forget you dream a little
You know, you know that miracles do not exist ...
Since long
22-09-2009 06h43
... good or bad, I really was not my own, the weight of what I wore, namely the importance of what I wore, my own freedom coming only second, the consequences of this and my responsibility, I am aware of that, I have chosen, and walked straight ahead.
So I have 11 years of road behind me. I was young, I was ignorantly afraid of nothing, and today I realize that I am 31 years old. But it's obvious I know, I am not God, I'm not perfect, I'm ultimately a simple woman, and if as "Ayumi Hamasaki" I'm the one who all its treasures she wants to defend that which is right and strong, without fear, come what may, in private, I have often thought of wanting to be just a normal young woman.
But I realize I've become someone who can not even cry when she is sad.
Look strong, that I know how to do better than anyone.
But it makes me sad.
"The miracle will happen!" You sent me lots of messages and written, I suppose it's following words I wrote at the end of my previous message.
Thank you!
Thank you for understanding me, since I do not always find the right words to express myself. It is not my work, it does not concern the "TA". But it is true that, even if it's extremely private, I sometimes face a real wall. There are times when I do not know how to get out of the darkness.
Yes, it's about love.
But it's like all of you, like everyone else, is it not ...?
Hmmm, if I read it when I woke up in the morning, do I not regret it?
Anyway, we are here with you all the "TA", so it's good, right?
It's me, as I am really at this moment, not very pretty ... you accept me anyway?
Surely, if I sleep and when I woke up, I again want to laugh.
And I will continue to write my "Journal of Vegas"!
I met you ... I understand what it meant to love someone ...
But yes, I know better than anyone that happy ending does not suit me well
I am too negative lol
Go, sleep, sleep! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
Creds: AyuAngel & identity@AHS
Ayu har en överaskning på G!I det andra inlägget lägger hon av en mer deppig ton men avslutar med hopp i orden! ^^
By super-express mail ...
22-09-2009 01h47
Here is what I come! ! ! ! ! ! !
Yes, from Satsuki chan ♡
Here is the side facing ♡
She changed the face of my phone, which had been release in autumn-winter version ♡
I was a little upset these days with something very private, Satsuki chan, in perfect timing, sent me this hope that shines with all its lights!
And little zoom on the message that accompanied ...
"Go go until Fukuoka!"
Yes.
By the end of the Silver Week (succession of holidays in Japan in September), something that was kept secret will be officially announced, so I can not say too much until then ...
Sarsuki chan, you and all of its staff, which you have worked for me without even count your work hours and taking on your sleep ... ♡
You can be you too hopeful! ! ! ! ! !
Say, you can forget you dream a little
You know, you know that miracles do not exist ...
Since long
22-09-2009 06h43
... good or bad, I really was not my own, the weight of what I wore, namely the importance of what I wore, my own freedom coming only second, the consequences of this and my responsibility, I am aware of that, I have chosen, and walked straight ahead.
So I have 11 years of road behind me. I was young, I was ignorantly afraid of nothing, and today I realize that I am 31 years old. But it's obvious I know, I am not God, I'm not perfect, I'm ultimately a simple woman, and if as "Ayumi Hamasaki" I'm the one who all its treasures she wants to defend that which is right and strong, without fear, come what may, in private, I have often thought of wanting to be just a normal young woman.
But I realize I've become someone who can not even cry when she is sad.
Look strong, that I know how to do better than anyone.
But it makes me sad.
"The miracle will happen!" You sent me lots of messages and written, I suppose it's following words I wrote at the end of my previous message.
Thank you!
Thank you for understanding me, since I do not always find the right words to express myself. It is not my work, it does not concern the "TA". But it is true that, even if it's extremely private, I sometimes face a real wall. There are times when I do not know how to get out of the darkness.
Yes, it's about love.
But it's like all of you, like everyone else, is it not ...?
Hmmm, if I read it when I woke up in the morning, do I not regret it?
Anyway, we are here with you all the "TA", so it's good, right?
It's me, as I am really at this moment, not very pretty ... you accept me anyway?
Surely, if I sleep and when I woke up, I again want to laugh.
And I will continue to write my "Journal of Vegas"!
I met you ... I understand what it meant to love someone ...
But yes, I know better than anyone that happy ending does not suit me well
I am too negative lol
Go, sleep, sleep! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
Creds: AyuAngel & identity@AHS
ayu's DIARY: 20/09/2009 - 21/09/2009
Vad god notera att detta är en översättning med google translations så ibland blir det en aning svårt att förstå men men. Bättre än inget!
Intended WOWOW ...
20-09-2009 08h51
... assembling images of a Direct 09-nation announcing, or rather through him, not knowing if I still have jet lag or if I'm back to my usual life, I l impression that I regained my normal pace (well, normal for me ...!).
I always fit! ! ! ! ! ! !
Yeah, because all the songs will be released ☆ ♪ ♪ ♪
Well, I change the subject, but here I went to watch the live Peco Sensei! ! ! ! ! !
At first I was very moved to the kindness of Peco Sensei who has made entry bouquet of flowers I sent him for the occasion ♡ I selected both thinking the image Peco theme at its Live this time.
And at the entrance, there was this ... ☆
If we approach ... ☆
Seeing the name of Peco Sensei head, and seeing all the glorious names of my elders in the world of music, I confess that I was very excited and raises my blood.
And when I'm sitting, and that songs and music reached my ears and my eyes, I could not hold back my tears.
I can not explain why, but the chest swollen with emotion, feeling so much from Peco Sensei, I could even move.
Tell Minazô between the camera and me, there is an arm holding a glass ...
In this regard, what Minazô drink is a delicious cocktail in limited quantities Peco san! ! !
In return, we were so excited, we took a few pictures ...
In addition, Zin san joined us along the way with Princess at the end of his rehearsals, but I do not know why Princess is not on the picture ... As boss what! lol
Just after our youth shouted famine were all embedded in my car to go eat lol. And now the delighted faces of Gori and SOU to their glass of beer if they are big fans lol.
Then Minazô has shown its great capacity devourer of food, but sorry, I was so surprised that I forgot to take pictures lol
Come on, wait until the next! ☆
Well, I go back to editing ♪
And I have not forgot to continue my "diary Vegas, a little patience! ♡
The saddest thing is to give up.
Because I know how hard it is painful to try to renew hands that are remote.
That is why I will never stop believing.
I have perhaps done wrong. I have perhaps lost all hope.
Perhaps you do not want to see my face.
But if our hands are not united, I have no meaning or value.
It is you who give me strength to live.
Someone taught me it was better to live believing rather than doubting.
If it is that you did never fear, I will be transformed into what you want.
I cried while reading the blog of Su san ...
This morning ...
20-09-2009 22h08
... I told you, so I continue my "diary Vegas, en route to the Part 3 ☆
I'm really motivated because I received lots of messages from you telling me you wanted to know more.
So come to our homes, everyone was saved and joined his room, and above all, change of clothes ♪
Because punishment has arrived, is the sight that awaited us ↓
Yes, after so many years, and many times you've seen a show that is always on top: it's "O"! ! ! ! ! !
Go, depart for the theater!
Well, it does not forget to take a family picture!
With Kanako in the limo ... ♪
In fact, we started d "ja at the time of being prone to jet lag, we took what the bear.
But to me ho do not support much caffeine, it has an effect of thunder lol.
Put through it, while all the eyes that were beginning to be vague, I have fully enjoyed the show until the end! ☆
Super happy! ☆ Super emotions! ☆ And now the team that went asleep dinner ...
Actually, I do not remember too much from this dinner ... lol
I think we did not even talk too much lol
Then! ! !
End of day! And sleep.
The second day, return to a more normal face, and lunch!
Of course, lunch Japanese (miso soup came so fast, I drank a ton lol) ( "fast" ... to appreciate this aspect of things, "this proves is that many Japanese, us. ..)
Even in a japanese restaurant, he orders the meat is well Stan Chan ♡ Y no, he is American!
Then, as we had a little time to show, we wondered what we could do ...
Well, we had to have strong emotions! ! ! It is all gone here ↓
This tower, where the top floor, pile of sacred machines ...!
Kanako and Chon without air strolling naive.
Without knowing the terror that awaited us later ...
Following the next episode! ☆
Thank you all for your messages full of warmth! !
And to those I have annoyed ... sorry! !
But also thank you.
THANK YOU
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!
Thank you for looking and right in the eye! !
Although it will take time, I will never abandon you until we understand completely! !
Hello! ♪
21-09-2009
I put these words I have received, and good morning made me upset the heart ...
There was beautiful scenery.
From what perspective is it the best
my eyes? I tried ...
But it was not that
What mattered was not what place
but that ...
Creds: AyuAngel & identity@AHS
Intended WOWOW ...
20-09-2009 08h51
... assembling images of a Direct 09-nation announcing, or rather through him, not knowing if I still have jet lag or if I'm back to my usual life, I l impression that I regained my normal pace (well, normal for me ...!).
I always fit! ! ! ! ! ! !
Yeah, because all the songs will be released ☆ ♪ ♪ ♪
Well, I change the subject, but here I went to watch the live Peco Sensei! ! ! ! ! !
At first I was very moved to the kindness of Peco Sensei who has made entry bouquet of flowers I sent him for the occasion ♡ I selected both thinking the image Peco theme at its Live this time.
And at the entrance, there was this ... ☆
If we approach ... ☆
Seeing the name of Peco Sensei head, and seeing all the glorious names of my elders in the world of music, I confess that I was very excited and raises my blood.
And when I'm sitting, and that songs and music reached my ears and my eyes, I could not hold back my tears.
I can not explain why, but the chest swollen with emotion, feeling so much from Peco Sensei, I could even move.
Tell Minazô between the camera and me, there is an arm holding a glass ...
In this regard, what Minazô drink is a delicious cocktail in limited quantities Peco san! ! !
In return, we were so excited, we took a few pictures ...
In addition, Zin san joined us along the way with Princess at the end of his rehearsals, but I do not know why Princess is not on the picture ... As boss what! lol
Just after our youth shouted famine were all embedded in my car to go eat lol. And now the delighted faces of Gori and SOU to their glass of beer if they are big fans lol.
Then Minazô has shown its great capacity devourer of food, but sorry, I was so surprised that I forgot to take pictures lol
Come on, wait until the next! ☆
Well, I go back to editing ♪
And I have not forgot to continue my "diary Vegas, a little patience! ♡
The saddest thing is to give up.
Because I know how hard it is painful to try to renew hands that are remote.
That is why I will never stop believing.
I have perhaps done wrong. I have perhaps lost all hope.
Perhaps you do not want to see my face.
But if our hands are not united, I have no meaning or value.
It is you who give me strength to live.
Someone taught me it was better to live believing rather than doubting.
If it is that you did never fear, I will be transformed into what you want.
I cried while reading the blog of Su san ...
This morning ...
20-09-2009 22h08
... I told you, so I continue my "diary Vegas, en route to the Part 3 ☆
I'm really motivated because I received lots of messages from you telling me you wanted to know more.
So come to our homes, everyone was saved and joined his room, and above all, change of clothes ♪
Because punishment has arrived, is the sight that awaited us ↓
Yes, after so many years, and many times you've seen a show that is always on top: it's "O"! ! ! ! ! !
Go, depart for the theater!
Well, it does not forget to take a family picture!
With Kanako in the limo ... ♪
In fact, we started d "ja at the time of being prone to jet lag, we took what the bear.
But to me ho do not support much caffeine, it has an effect of thunder lol.
Put through it, while all the eyes that were beginning to be vague, I have fully enjoyed the show until the end! ☆
Super happy! ☆ Super emotions! ☆ And now the team that went asleep dinner ...
Actually, I do not remember too much from this dinner ... lol
I think we did not even talk too much lol
Then! ! !
End of day! And sleep.
The second day, return to a more normal face, and lunch!
Of course, lunch Japanese (miso soup came so fast, I drank a ton lol) ( "fast" ... to appreciate this aspect of things, "this proves is that many Japanese, us. ..)
Even in a japanese restaurant, he orders the meat is well Stan Chan ♡ Y no, he is American!
Then, as we had a little time to show, we wondered what we could do ...
Well, we had to have strong emotions! ! ! It is all gone here ↓
This tower, where the top floor, pile of sacred machines ...!
Kanako and Chon without air strolling naive.
Without knowing the terror that awaited us later ...
Following the next episode! ☆
Thank you all for your messages full of warmth! !
And to those I have annoyed ... sorry! !
But also thank you.
THANK YOU
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!
Thank you for looking and right in the eye! !
Although it will take time, I will never abandon you until we understand completely! !
Hello! ♪
21-09-2009
I put these words I have received, and good morning made me upset the heart ...
There was beautiful scenery.
From what perspective is it the best
my eyes? I tried ...
But it was not that
What mattered was not what place
but that ...
Creds: AyuAngel & identity@AHS
ayu's DIARY: 18/09/2009
Again and again ...
18-09-2009 07h12
... Chon-san is disrupted by jet lag, ☆ so why not continue the "newspaper of Vegas"? As before Part 2 ☆
Then, the terminal reserved for private jets, here we boarded our plane, the voltage is high enough! Then the flight was uneventful, in a joyful atmosphere ♪
Hmm? ! ? ! ? !
Found a person who is a little pale lol
It is in the foreground of this picture, it does not move lol.
Yes, SOU chan, he suffers from vertigo ...! And each time the plane looks or moves it a little, it emits a sound we had never heard until now lol.
For his part, Chon san has acquired a new camera, I spend my time filming and photographing everything and anything.
For example, I even photographed it ↓
And why deal with and the flight seemed to us particularly short ♪
Reunion with Stan Chan ♡
pui, with the camcorder to Maroni, when I was concentrated to these photos, now that Kanako Bancho said:
"It looks like the mother of Maro. A load rule lol.
Yes, it's not fake lol
Then, at the initiative of Stan chan, we took a souvenir photo of the group.
Maroni, it was a bit off lol
From there, transfer to hotel ♪
It is, as always, the Bellagio.
Below are a boy who moved into the limo! ! !
Other boys are in another limo! ! !
And you, which do you prefer? ♡
and then by dropping suddenly to "kyaa!" and "kyooo!" seeing the city, we have arrived at the hotel.
Forced march down long hallways!
I found the apartment you will occupy ♪
Paspourquoi I know, we went right on the terrace where pool and Jacuzzi. Super sunny.
That is, if it turns, you see our apartment. wait a minute ...
Oh on the left, there Mr. class lol ↓
In fact, the apartment just to Chon san and Kanako ♡ No doubt the conversations between girls will be animated!
Meanwhile, Parkway Drive ♪ ♪
Well, more later. Z'êtes impatient eh? ☆
I will treat my jet lag with Prison Break!
Scofiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiield ♡
Uh ... Mahone looks like Enrique san ..
I knew the only one thinking that? ? ?
Credit: cy @ AyuAngel C+R+E+AYUMI@AHS + Ayu's Story
18-09-2009 07h12
... Chon-san is disrupted by jet lag, ☆ so why not continue the "newspaper of Vegas"? As before Part 2 ☆
Then, the terminal reserved for private jets, here we boarded our plane, the voltage is high enough! Then the flight was uneventful, in a joyful atmosphere ♪
Hmm? ! ? ! ? !
Found a person who is a little pale lol
It is in the foreground of this picture, it does not move lol.
Yes, SOU chan, he suffers from vertigo ...! And each time the plane looks or moves it a little, it emits a sound we had never heard until now lol.
For his part, Chon san has acquired a new camera, I spend my time filming and photographing everything and anything.
For example, I even photographed it ↓
And why deal with and the flight seemed to us particularly short ♪
Reunion with Stan Chan ♡
pui, with the camcorder to Maroni, when I was concentrated to these photos, now that Kanako Bancho said:
"It looks like the mother of Maro. A load rule lol.
Yes, it's not fake lol
Then, at the initiative of Stan chan, we took a souvenir photo of the group.
Maroni, it was a bit off lol
From there, transfer to hotel ♪
It is, as always, the Bellagio.
Below are a boy who moved into the limo! ! !
Other boys are in another limo! ! !
And you, which do you prefer? ♡
and then by dropping suddenly to "kyaa!" and "kyooo!" seeing the city, we have arrived at the hotel.
Forced march down long hallways!
I found the apartment you will occupy ♪
Paspourquoi I know, we went right on the terrace where pool and Jacuzzi. Super sunny.
That is, if it turns, you see our apartment. wait a minute ...
Oh on the left, there Mr. class lol ↓
In fact, the apartment just to Chon san and Kanako ♡ No doubt the conversations between girls will be animated!
Meanwhile, Parkway Drive ♪ ♪
Well, more later. Z'êtes impatient eh? ☆
I will treat my jet lag with Prison Break!
Scofiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiield ♡
Uh ... Mahone looks like Enrique san ..
I knew the only one thinking that? ? ?
Credit: cy @ AyuAngel C+R+E+AYUMI@AHS + Ayu's Story
ayu's DIARY: 16/09/2009 - 17/09/2009
Jet lag ...
16-09-2009 11:28
... I fell squarely above. It is at its max, I did not sleep altogether!
Someone to help me? !
Anyway, here yesterday, we all returned safely to Japan
From Narita, we went directly to work, then transfer to another workplace ... I was quite surprised by the already tight schedule lol.
In Vegas, we saw lots of different shows, in fact we did a sort of training in "Entertainment" overall.
And this time, with regard to the dancers who accompanied me, I received many messages telling me "and Shu chan?" or "and Midoringu?". In fact, we decided that those who come are primarily responsible for the choreography. San Zin, Su san, chan & Maro Kayanocchi, it is of course the dancers, but from my point of view, they came to study with me as choreographers ♪
That is so. When my head is a little more back to the Japanese schedule, I will give you lots of things on this adventure in Las Vegas ☆
Here, I made my report! ! ! ! ! !
From what day we were too demanding
While it would be enough of that either one side to the other ...
Voilààà,
17-09-2009 12:10
Jet lag is still there, Chon san is always reached.
I still can not sleep ... (sweat)
So, never mind, let's go to the "Journal of Vegas"! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
Here's Part 1.
If it begins with the flight to San Francisco, that must be it ...
Here, the memories come back to me!
Chon san fights with her memory!
Here I am in what I called ...
"egg" ♡.
The poncho is a gift that gave me the boss Kashwere when he came to see me for the concert Yoyogi ♪
It goes well with many other colors, it is super convenient ♡
The computer is of course the masterpiece Satsuki chan ♡
Arriving in San Francisco ... ♪
A surprising encounter with a girl that we like to "Welcome to San Francisco ♡"
Amazing also met with a Japanese man who never stops to play it!
Amazing still meet with Japanese reassembled well!
Here, following the latest ♪ ♪ ♪
Arf, I have to get up in less than 3 hours.
Should I get to sleep ...
Huhuhu
17-09-2009 15h06
I got up.
Maron, he went to the beauty parlor, he is cute ♡
That's all.
At tonight. (There's not a good thing on TV ?...)
Credit: cy @ AyuAngel C+R+E+AYUMI@AHS + Ayu's Story
16-09-2009 11:28
... I fell squarely above. It is at its max, I did not sleep altogether!
Someone to help me? !
Anyway, here yesterday, we all returned safely to Japan
From Narita, we went directly to work, then transfer to another workplace ... I was quite surprised by the already tight schedule lol.
In Vegas, we saw lots of different shows, in fact we did a sort of training in "Entertainment" overall.
And this time, with regard to the dancers who accompanied me, I received many messages telling me "and Shu chan?" or "and Midoringu?". In fact, we decided that those who come are primarily responsible for the choreography. San Zin, Su san, chan & Maro Kayanocchi, it is of course the dancers, but from my point of view, they came to study with me as choreographers ♪
That is so. When my head is a little more back to the Japanese schedule, I will give you lots of things on this adventure in Las Vegas ☆
Here, I made my report! ! ! ! ! !
From what day we were too demanding
While it would be enough of that either one side to the other ...
Voilààà,
17-09-2009 12:10
Jet lag is still there, Chon san is always reached.
I still can not sleep ... (sweat)
So, never mind, let's go to the "Journal of Vegas"! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
Here's Part 1.
If it begins with the flight to San Francisco, that must be it ...
Here, the memories come back to me!
Chon san fights with her memory!
Here I am in what I called ...
"egg" ♡.
The poncho is a gift that gave me the boss Kashwere when he came to see me for the concert Yoyogi ♪
It goes well with many other colors, it is super convenient ♡
The computer is of course the masterpiece Satsuki chan ♡
Arriving in San Francisco ... ♪
A surprising encounter with a girl that we like to "Welcome to San Francisco ♡"
Amazing also met with a Japanese man who never stops to play it!
Amazing still meet with Japanese reassembled well!
Here, following the latest ♪ ♪ ♪
Arf, I have to get up in less than 3 hours.
Should I get to sleep ...
Huhuhu
17-09-2009 15h06
I got up.
Maron, he went to the beauty parlor, he is cute ♡
That's all.
At tonight. (There's not a good thing on TV ?...)
Credit: cy @ AyuAngel C+R+E+AYUMI@AHS + Ayu's Story
ayu's DIARY: 14/09/2009
Slowly,
14 September 2009 2:37 AM
shall I make my entrance?
Where are we? The correct answer to the riddle!
Before that, sharing photos on my diary.
First~, since coming here, the custom has been everyone going to study♪
Ah, by the way, this is from day before yesterday.
Afterward, we went to the place we love to stay♪
That is, whenever we come here, we sit in the same spot.
Because ...
I just can't give up this nighttime view.
No, "Can't give up no matter what~"* is what it is.
Afterwards, I get closer so I can steadily soak up the night view.
Let's see-----------
Look closer-----------.
And...
Huh?
The fountain!!!
Break time!
Most recently, when night falls, a rabbit frequently appears.
Or someone trying very hard to imitate one. ↓
Subunny!(/pink)**
I guess he kinda looks like a store manager somewhere. lol
I guess he kinda looks out of place with the bunny ears. lol
Clever. ☆
Well, back to the journaling.
Here's me going to yesterday's study meeting~♪
Afterward, we always go to a different restaurant.
We get this beautiful night view from where we stay☆
We can see nothing but this all the time, it's so incredibly cool~!!!!
With Kayanocchi ♡
With Boy-tachi*** and Yamamoto-kaicho who invited us to this place
I said to Tou-san, "Somehow it's like a store, lol" but I meant it as a compliment.
Moving to the dinner table, everyone drank**** together.
I'm digressing, but during the toast, Su-san was addressing us, but this time the speech was,
"To us, who sparkle more than this million dollar night view!☆"
Such a great MC. His speech was very different.
...Huh???
Oh yeah, where I am right now. I forgot to write that.
But I'm so busy packing now. The answer is at the dancers' and Sou's blogs, so you can check there~. (Depending on other people to do my work for me
Alrighty, I'll be back later!
*"Sokontoko yuzurenai." Lyrics from Rule. Ha ha ha.
**Subaru dressed as a bunny. Subaru plus Bunny equals Subunny. Ayu calls him "Usasuba" (Usagi + Subaru). I dunno why I decided to translate this. lol
***She says "Danshi-zu" here.... Japanese "Danshi" plus english "s" for the plural. So I switched the languages around and said "Boy-tachi".
****Kanpai! haha
Creds: Gaijin Kanpai, Ayu's Story & C+R+E+AYUMI@AHS
14 September 2009 2:37 AM
shall I make my entrance?
Where are we? The correct answer to the riddle!
Before that, sharing photos on my diary.
First~, since coming here, the custom has been everyone going to study♪
Ah, by the way, this is from day before yesterday.
Afterward, we went to the place we love to stay♪
That is, whenever we come here, we sit in the same spot.
Because ...
I just can't give up this nighttime view.
No, "Can't give up no matter what~"* is what it is.
Afterwards, I get closer so I can steadily soak up the night view.
Let's see-----------
Look closer-----------.
And...
Huh?
The fountain!!!
Break time!
Most recently, when night falls, a rabbit frequently appears.
Or someone trying very hard to imitate one. ↓
Subunny!(/pink)**
I guess he kinda looks like a store manager somewhere. lol
I guess he kinda looks out of place with the bunny ears. lol
Clever. ☆
Well, back to the journaling.
Here's me going to yesterday's study meeting~♪
Afterward, we always go to a different restaurant.
We get this beautiful night view from where we stay☆
We can see nothing but this all the time, it's so incredibly cool~!!!!
With Kayanocchi ♡
With Boy-tachi*** and Yamamoto-kaicho who invited us to this place
I said to Tou-san, "Somehow it's like a store, lol" but I meant it as a compliment.
Moving to the dinner table, everyone drank**** together.
I'm digressing, but during the toast, Su-san was addressing us, but this time the speech was,
"To us, who sparkle more than this million dollar night view!☆"
Such a great MC. His speech was very different.
...Huh???
Oh yeah, where I am right now. I forgot to write that.
But I'm so busy packing now. The answer is at the dancers' and Sou's blogs, so you can check there~. (Depending on other people to do my work for me
Alrighty, I'll be back later!
*"Sokontoko yuzurenai." Lyrics from Rule. Ha ha ha.
**Subaru dressed as a bunny. Subaru plus Bunny equals Subunny. Ayu calls him "Usasuba" (Usagi + Subaru). I dunno why I decided to translate this. lol
***She says "Danshi-zu" here.... Japanese "Danshi" plus english "s" for the plural. So I switched the languages around and said "Boy-tachi".
****Kanpai! haha
Creds: Gaijin Kanpai, Ayu's Story & C+R+E+AYUMI@AHS
ayu's DIARY 12/09/2009
Hello!
12-09-2009 08h07
Well, once I open my message with a picture!
The class eh?
That's how I took it.
or so ...
This is the kind.
Yesterday, during our visit, the staff ayu with the dancers have completely monopolized an escalator.
Well, I pass on that which strikes a pose in the foreground.
I do not know why, seeing that, Chon san was a little nervous ↓
Seen from the other side! !
Chon san photography, laughing, and behind, the Prince also all smiles ☆
I do not see myself why this tension.
Well, as I told you, Kayanocchi has arrived has joined us.
You we put the photo Kayanocchi! ! I received lots of messages in that direction, so I made every attempt to satisfy them.
Of course, I've even done too much.
But anyway, I have been able to photograph such beautiful couple too, too rich, too much class, we were the first surprise! lol
This is the result!
I was wrong!
Well I put a good photo!
That ♡
Un .. two ... three ...
It BEAAAUUUUUU ♡
Too much class, eh?
It is great as my laptop!
Then to our table, we were given a huge glass of milk.
So that was really not in a mood or a frame to drink milk.
Indeed, in chatting with naked after we realized that, thinking he said "beer", the server has heard of "milk".
So we have to drink to the person who boasts of reading newspapers in English and who can not even order a "beer" lol
Yes, Maroni ...!
Then, by selecting the pictures that I post on this blog, I found it ↓
There's one that's weird, right?
Yes, Maroni ...!
When I saw it, I gasped lol
A photo taken like that, it was just a strange being that she is not trivial at all lol!
A picture of high lol
Me too from today I will ask class!
They form a "class team"! (what I tell myself? lol)
Finally, in full contemplation of the spectacle that night, Chon san and Kanako Miura Bancho san! ♡
Here the sun has almost completely disappeared. And at the same time, as to brighten your day with you, it begins to rise at home.
The strength to survive. 11.
Please remember ...
Credit: cy @ AyuAngel C+R+E+AYUMI@AHS + Ayu's Story
12-09-2009 08h07
Well, once I open my message with a picture!
The class eh?
That's how I took it.
or so ...
This is the kind.
Yesterday, during our visit, the staff ayu with the dancers have completely monopolized an escalator.
Well, I pass on that which strikes a pose in the foreground.
I do not know why, seeing that, Chon san was a little nervous ↓
Seen from the other side! !
Chon san photography, laughing, and behind, the Prince also all smiles ☆
I do not see myself why this tension.
Well, as I told you, Kayanocchi has arrived has joined us.
You we put the photo Kayanocchi! ! I received lots of messages in that direction, so I made every attempt to satisfy them.
Of course, I've even done too much.
But anyway, I have been able to photograph such beautiful couple too, too rich, too much class, we were the first surprise! lol
This is the result!
I was wrong!
Well I put a good photo!
That ♡
Un .. two ... three ...
It BEAAAUUUUUU ♡
Too much class, eh?
It is great as my laptop!
Then to our table, we were given a huge glass of milk.
So that was really not in a mood or a frame to drink milk.
Indeed, in chatting with naked after we realized that, thinking he said "beer", the server has heard of "milk".
So we have to drink to the person who boasts of reading newspapers in English and who can not even order a "beer" lol
Yes, Maroni ...!
Then, by selecting the pictures that I post on this blog, I found it ↓
There's one that's weird, right?
Yes, Maroni ...!
When I saw it, I gasped lol
A photo taken like that, it was just a strange being that she is not trivial at all lol!
A picture of high lol
Me too from today I will ask class!
They form a "class team"! (what I tell myself? lol)
Finally, in full contemplation of the spectacle that night, Chon san and Kanako Miura Bancho san! ♡
Here the sun has almost completely disappeared. And at the same time, as to brighten your day with you, it begins to rise at home.
The strength to survive. 11.
Please remember ...
Credit: cy @ AyuAngel C+R+E+AYUMI@AHS + Ayu's Story
